Let me in

Im leaving

I remember the feeling of heat and the instant pain, the sick look of satisfaction on his face as my face contorted with surprise then with pain.

It was a normal night for me, I was leaving my clinical at the emergency room. "Good night momma  Jo, be careful tonight you know how people are. I'm leaving." I said to my favorite nurse, who had already taught me so much. Jo looked at me and hugged me, "goodnight hunny, be careful getting home." I smiled and walked out the back doors of the ambulance bay. I was always aware of my surroundings but the parking lot was lit and it was the witching hours, I allowed my guard down. Suddenly I heard a man call to me, I turned and smiled "hi, how can I help you?" He smiled and said "by any chance is your name Alexis?" Taken a back by the sudden question, i thought to myself "you've taken care of many patients. This is probably a family member." I replied after a second, "yes sir I am" and with out warning I heard a loud bang and my stomach became very hot as i stumbled back like someone had pushed me. My hand instinctively reached for the wound, i felt the hot sticky liquid and i knew I had been shot. My mind began to race as if trying to find a way out of this situation and then again I heard another bang and the heat pierced my skin once again, this time it was higher. I fell to the ground as a scream ripped from my throat as the pain spread over my body. The man leaned down next to my head and whispered "tell them if they take one of ours, we take one of theirs. "  I could taste iron in my mouth but i didn't speak, I began to close my eyes as he stood up and said "on second thought, I think I'll tell them myself." I saw him raise the gun again and I knew if i continued to lay on the ground i would die in that spot, and i refused to die with out a fight. With whatever I had in me, I kicked up and managed to hit the mans arm. This surprised him, he scrambled for the gun and i started hobbling as fast as I could. I began to scream, praying someone heard me. God had answered my prayer because the back doors opened. Jo, Rob, and officer Stanley came running out, no doubt wondering what the hell was going on. With out warning my legs gave out and i fell to the ground, Jo was the first to reach me and by the look on her face I could tell that the iron tasting fluid had pooled out of my mouth. I heard shouting and felt Jo pull me to her and lay over my body, as if shielding my already battered body. I didn't hear the ambulance pull up but soon recognized the face standing over me as one of the Paramedics, Joseph.

I felt myself be picked up and placed on the mattress, I could feel someone on there with me. Hands over the wound but I just closed my eyes. Robs voice broke through to my ears "ah ah, Baby doll open your eyes. You open those eyes right now." I slowly opened them and realized I was back inside, but it felt like I was dreaming, this couldn't actually be happening to me. I heard so much commotion around and heard over the PA "FULL TRUAMA ETA 0 MINUTES. FULL TRUAMA ETA 0 MINUTES." I just stared up at the ceiling, one of the other students came into view. "Oh my god." Was all I heard from his mouth. I tried to speak but it hurt and I was told to not, but I had to tell them I had to warn them. I grabbing who ever was starting the IV on my arm and a few people stopped for a second and stared at me. I picked my head up, "I am the first, warn them or there will be more. You have to call them and warn them!" I could feel my heart racing as I said it. The looks of horror I'm sure mimicked mine, "he said, "tell them, if they take one of our we will take one of theirs. It's retaliation, but I don't think I'll be the only one." It was like a switch flipped and Rob stepped out of the room for a minute. I felt like I needed to move but I couldn't. Jo came into my line of sight, "jo you have to call my mom. You have to let her know I'm not coming home. She is going to be worried." Jo's face softened and said "baby, we're worried about you right now"

A loud voice came in and I heard "what the hell happened?" The doctor came into my view and looked at me and his face showed that he recognized me, I'd only worked hundreds of traumas with this man. He squeezed my hand before going full doctor mode again and assessing me. I felt cold medal against my skin and knew they were cutting off my clothes and the air hit my semi naked body. I heard that one was a through and through, the other was still inside. I could feel my blood pressure dropping and grabbed someone's hand and squeezed it as tightly as I could until I felt like I was going limp, I was loosing blood and fast. They moved me to CT for scans and I couldn't count how many people had tears in their eyes, but I can honestly say I didn't care at that time. My body hurt but I was also numb, it was quick. "I've never been on this side before" I thought while in the machine, and being transported around I felt helpless.
I saw my people and the officers came, but the doctor shoed them out completely, the last thing I saw was the people I loved standing around me, I knew my life was in their hands, that's when my world went black.