Drown in my ocean of black box dye

He clicked the pen his therapist had given him, opening the first page. In big letters, he wrote, "Reasons To Live: 1-100." Then, he flipped to the middle of the journal. He paused, felt-tip inches from the page. This was gonna be another mistake to add to his long-running list, wasn't it? Caving, he put the pen to th...