And He Was.

As story about Dan and a slow decline into an eating disorder.

Save Me From Myself (a Dan Howell fanfic)

Dan is done, he's had enough, he isn't loved, nobody likes him, it's time he died and finally rested in peace. Everything is set, the rope hung, his body ready to fall, And then he receives a message from AmazingPhil... One-Shot Warning! (Covers depression in a loose form)

Paint It Black (Phan fic)

Dan and Phil seem to have a pretty good life. They are a couple of the most famous youtubers, the work on their own radio show, and they're best friends. Phil couldn't be any happier. But what happens when Phil finds out about the other side of Dan he hasn't met yet? WARNING: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL TENDE...

You're Driving Me Mental - Phan

Phil is the new patient at an adolescent mental health unit. A young Dan is told to keep an eye on him but apparently, not caring causing things to go down hill. Will Phil get better, for Dan, as well as himself? ~ COMPLETE ~ BOOK ONE ~

Fine || Phan

That feeling deep down in your stomach, the craving. Yeah, I've had that. But not for food or blood or lust. The emptiness achieved from not eating since Monday. That's what I craved. #414 in fanfiction lol get recked

Trapped

//trigger warning// ·Depression ·Eating Disorder ·Suicide It's like screaming... and no one can hear.

Skinny Love-Phan

Five days ago, Phil found his best friend bleeding to death. Triggers: attempted suicide, self harm Author note: Based off of the song Skinny Love. I prefer the Birdy version, but Bon Iver is the original artist. I suggest listening during reading. If you enjoy, become a fan, vote, and comment any ideas you have. :D

Does it hurt? Phan (completed)

Dan comes home from Christmas shopping to find Phil in the bathroom passed out. He doesn't know how or why this happened, but is terrified for his best friend. Dan tries to help Phil but gets annoyed with himself in the process, writing everything he hates about himself along with his deepest secret: his love for his...

eat//phan

eating makes me sick, not eating makes me sick, at least one makes me pretty TW// eating disorder!!

unspoken - phan

Dan, depressed and anorexic, gave up on speaking years ago. He was lost in alcohol and loneliness until a black haired boy showed up and broke the silence. [trigger warning; depression, anxiety and anorexia/bulimia] - this story is from a german girl, who's not fluently speaking english

the day i met him ↠ phan

This story is one that I started a year ago so it moves a bit fast and it's very cringey so I'm sorry //TRIGGER WARNING// //eating disorders// Dan is a troubled soul looking to drugs and alcohol for relief until he walked into a cafe and saw the man that would change his life forever. Phil

Phan self harm

fat {Phan}

f a t Those three letters have defined Phil his whole life. But he soon discovers another three letters that just might save him... d a n

Anorexia; Phan

"I never wanted this. I never planned this. So how do you think I'll get over this horrible disease that literally is eating me away to nothing?" Daniel Howell, a sixteen year old who lives an ordinary life but he has a secret. A secret that he had never told anyone. He is a target of anorexia nervosa. Trigger Warnin...

Pretty Boy (Phan)

Dan wanted to be pretty (TW: death/eating disorders/depression) Also im not good at covers if you wanna make me one thats great (@phan-tabulousphil on tumblr) Sorry for the promo but I need Current cover by Danspillow

Deprived /// (Phan AU)

(UNFINISHED)(CLOSED) Phil is just the quiet kid in the back of the class. Dan is the happy kid that everybody knows, but when they become roommates at their boarding school and Dan begins to care for Phil will everything change? Follow this tale as Dan tries to break the intriguing boy out of his shell. Little does he...

flowers ↠ phan (on hold)

a mysterious blue eyed boy shows up at dan howells door every morning with flowers. ~ mute phil

Dark and Dangerous

If anyone believed me, they would be as in love with you as I am.

Coriander//Phan

C O R I A N D E R (flower) - Lust Two boys in university that have nothing to do with each other meet with a book and Dan Howell can't stop thinking about the boy with ginger locks covered with flower petals and skin littered with soft freckles along with his deep shining watery eyes of blue. Phil is the school's pret...

Blue Illusion (Phanfiction)

Phil is the boy with blue eyes that Dan had always admired, but what's his dark secret? And can Dan save him from it?... In which Phil is a sex worker and Dan is an University student who got slightly too involved. (Please feel free to comment and correct any spelling and grammar mistakes so that I can fix them)

Mr. Perfect and Me (phan) // Under Editing

Dan's the most popular boy in school who's 'madly in love' with his girlfriend Caelyn. Dan finds out that things in him are changing and goes to Phil, the kid who gets bullied for his sexuality. Things happen between Dan and Phil, but will it be a happy ending? (This is a smut FREE phanfic. There will be NO smut)

A Simple Smile, A Billion Scars ( Phan ) *On Hold.

-ANGST WARNING- If you do not like any of the following please do not read. -Self-harm -Cheating -Depressing -Smut -Abuse ~ Phil Lester, a boy who fell in love with Dan Howell. But Dan was married to a woman named Victoria, and she was Phils sister. Phil was 16, Dan was 20. This was a huge age difference to Phil, but...

Exchanging Feelings (Phan)

Phil is an exchange student and Dan happens to be his host brother. GENRE: Fluff/Angst. there is smut but you shouldn't read if that's all you want. WARNINGS: Drug/Alcohol Usage, Swearing, Depression and mentions of suicide (cutting, suicide attempt), Death of family members, Childhood traumas, Car accidents, Boyxbo...

Phan Smut One Shots

Probably mostly bottom!Phil. but ya knoooww

My Name Is Dan (Phan AU)

My name is Dan. Not Danielle. I'm a 16 year old boy. I'm not a girl. I'm Dan. - [copyright ary asylum 2015] [any art used is mine unless otherwise stated]

Transgender ⇢ Phan

WARNING (mentions self harm, attempted suicide, etc.) also Cursing. I was inspired by Alex_Dawson's story "Transgender" and "Call me Dan" so credits to them :) I've actually have been wanting to make a story like this for a while. So here we are! I know my writing skills aren't the best, but I hope you enjoy the sto...

Transgender || phan (book 1)

A boy across from me is staring. Maybe it's because I'm looking through female hairstyles instead of men's. I glare at him. Homophobic trash... The boy who use to sit across from me is still there. As I pass him, his name gets called as well. Dan.

Messenger and Phan

Just Dan Howell and Phil Lester who accidentally came across each other on facebook. And Phil Lester, as the happy sun he is, wanted to talk to Dan. Dan Howell on the other hand, wasn't that kind of person. What will happen?

Dear Dan

Xx trigger warning xX "You told Me you had painted That your body was your canvas And your only paint was blood" Dan and Phil has been living together for 6 years but only now is Phil discovering dan's secret

DISCONTINUED :: bus boy [p h a n]

in which an asthmatic boy and an anxious boy sit next to each other on the school bus