A Light At The End Of A Tunnel

Hi, I'm Violet, and I'm toxic. Well, I am according to my stepfather.
My mother died when I was young.
Ever since then, I tried my hardest to be the daughter she wanted me to turn out to be.
My stepfather makes that impossible.
How can you be the daughter your mother wants you to be when everything turned so badly after she passed away?
How can you do that when every night you lay in bed praying something will take you out of this world while you sleep?
How can you do that, when everything is just so wrong?
Well, I'll tell you how.