He wants to take it back, he wants to make it so this isn't how it has to be. But he can't. He wants to hold the pieces of Harry together until they stay, but he knows that he did this, it's his fault that Harry's broken like this. He felt Harry fall apart in his hand as he forced his signature, he felt him shatter against his chest when he held him in the car on their way back home. "I don't want this," Harry says with a wobbly voice when Louis' I'm sorry's have run out. "I know, darling,"