Another Life, Another Dream, Another Day

Life without you seems like it's blue,
Can't seem to fight the current,
Almost feels like I am drowning,
I don't want to let the tide win me,
But something tells me I have lost control of the waters,
The ocean is calling me I can feel it,
The urge to just jump in seems too hard to fight,
One look at the moon and I am memorized where it's almost too hard to look away from the moonlight,
I became a mermaid under its control and every since then I have been living underneath the waters,
I just love the way the water flows makes me feel like I am free and ready to leave my land on the surface,
It may be hard to stop being human but that seems to be the only thing I can do to keep being me,
You may not understand why I've decided to go,
Just know it's me not you,
I just can't keep living my life if my heart isn't in it,
I loved you with what felt like my whole life now it's time for me to live my life and that starts with just swimming into the deep,
Going skinny dipping and just putting on the suit as a mermaid and staying in the water forever,
My skin may start to wrinkle but you almost cant seem to tell because,
I am living life in the ocean blue and that seems to be enough for me but not for you,
It may not be your time to depart but for me there is only so much my heart can take before it needs to find other means of escape,
I keep looking back and seeing just how much I loved you,
You would think I was looking into my own reflection,
When really it's all just a dream into a flashback,
Where even though I wanted to run away from the nightmare of the halls of HighSchool,
I can't seem to turn off my mind or erase the thought where I am seen,
Dressed in a red lace dress with black flats and my makeup all done with a red vibrant lip to match and everyone looking at who is this girl,
and when did she become such a LatinaGirl with all her roses that cover her body when really it's all just the lace from the dress she is wearing.