Cravings

Please stand me by. Please explain my feelings. I'm begging you, because I don't know if i can deal with myself for any longer. Why don't you leave me? Why do you try to kill me every night? Why am i not able to look at myself anymore? It's okay, don't cry. I'll let you win again. But please won't you hurt me? I can't stand the pain. You can make it go away? Please show me, I promise I will keep it a secret.