Xavier's life turned upside down 5 years ago when he turned 17 . The life he hoped and longed was gone forever. He lost more then someone he loved. He lost himself. Thinking that he is abomination he drifted apart from everyone who loved him. He was mess and didn't wanted to let anyone know how utterly broken his soul is literally and figuratively. He wanted to leave everyone and everything behind. But there was someone who knew how much he needed opposite of being alone. While trying to not let that person down he is keeping himself under control but when someone else barge in his life who made his feel like he is not insane but driving him far away from his sanity he was more of a mess then before....... Story will contain some stuff that might be inappropriate for some readers apart from character's sexuality and life choices because i don't like perfection.