Ghost Boy (Jikook AU)

"I wanted to be alone yet loved at the same time and if there is a god he knows that I certainly can't love myself.

"The truth is that I'm scared of dying because I don't know what comes after and I don't know what would have happened had my attempt of killing myself worked, but I regret it. I hate that I'm invisible I hate that I'm alone, I hate that my body is rotting in an unmarked grave somewhere, and I hate, hate that I had to sit there and watch in agony as everyone went back to their daily lives after I died without a second thought. No one wondered why I did it, no one tried to find a suicide note, they just kept living. And I guess that's what one does when they are alive, they live but I would've appreciated it if they at least continued to live with the memory of me."