She needed to vent. And she didn't like other people knowing her feelings. About anything. This is an ongoing diary. It will be complete when she feels whole again and that won't be for a while, so even though it isn't completed, it won't matter. The entries won't be in a story line or anything. Just a bunch of 3am type thoughts and feelings. Her thoughts are depressing and sometimes violent and every now and then suicidal, just a warning, I don't want to trigger anything or anyone. Read if you want but this is really just her way of pouring her heart out.