What do you do when you lose the love of your life? Learning how to grieve was never something you just.. Learn. All that pain you feel just eats at you to the point that it starts to suffocate you. It feels like you're being held under the water and no matter how many times you try to reach the surface you get shoved down even further. Choking. You have no idea when you'll finally get that sweet gasp of air. You just gotta believe.