@--Lost-Soul--
The only good thing about my uncommon deadname is that it's in a popular movie that EVERYONE quotes (even my high school English teacher in front of the whole class... none of the kids probably got it...) SO HOUSE SAID MY NAME HEHEHHEHEHEH. Deadname is my dedaname but not? It's just a name, just like name calling idc. The only thing that really hits me with dysmorphia is my voice and maybe... My body fat, but that's another story.
"So what was the plan? I'd feel so humbled, by missing a case... that I'd re-evaluate my entire life, question the nature of truth and goodness, become Cameron?"
"Something like that... More that if we told you the truth, that you'd solved a case based on absolutely no medical proof, you'd think you were God. And... I was worried your wings would melt."
"God doesn't limp."
"Our relationship is addiction, it's like-."
"Really good drugs?"
"No, it's like vindaloo curry. Really Really hot Indian curry they make with chili peppers."
"I know what it is. I didn't think it was addictive."
"You're abrasive and annoying and come on way too strong, like vindaloo curry. And if your crazy about curry, that's fine. But no matter how much you love curry, you have too much of it, it takes the roof of your mouth off, and they you never wanna see curry for a really long time. But you wake up one day and you think... God... I really miss curry... You're a jerk."
"I know. If you hadn't have a fight with Mark."
"For once in your life, can you just shut up."
"You're an idiot. You don't think she'd be better off without you."
"Right. I set her off on a whim."
"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHY YOU SENT HER OFF."
"Don't do this."
"This is no great sacrifice.You sent her away because you're GOT to be MISERABLE."
"That kind of psycho crap help get your patients through the long nights? Or is it just for you? Tough love make you feel good? Helping people feel their pain."
"... You don't like yourself. But you do admire yourself. It's all you've got, so you cling to it. Your so afraid if you change, you'll lose what makes you special. Being miserable doesn't make you better than everybody else, House. It just makes you miserable."
DAMN, MY HEART. ITS BREAKING, IT'S RELATING TOO MUXH HELP
The "I don't want to go there again." He hurt her, but that just made him hurt more! HE COULDN'T DO IT AGAIN. HE COULDN'T WATCH HER LEAVE AGAIN, HE ALREADY DID IT ONCE HE CAN ONLY BREAK SO MUCH!! And the tears in the actors eyes and how she goes to hold his face like a lost lover, bc that's what he is. Lost to her. For he was once hers. Once he was all hers. But not anymore... never again UGHHGHHHH
ANOTHER KUYA VIDEO, I CANT I CAN'T XIJWJSBWISKENSNE. AAAAAAAA EEEEEEE HEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHE
KUYAAAAAA AAAA I can't I can't I cantttttt watch it, I NEED it. IT IS THE BLOOD IN MY VEINS, I CANNOT SJSNHSJWS The ovulation horny is gonna hit in a day or two and I'm gonna be chewing at the damn sheets, I go mf crazzzzy. Hornyyyyyfor my Kuya AAAHSVS EEEE HEHEHHR
THIS IS WHY I CANT WRITE SMUT SCENES. I get so horny from my own writing. I mean... that means it's good... right...? I REALLY NEED to someone to look over my writing bc like... I NEED REASSURE EVERY 2 MINS OR I CAN'T WRITE ((ﾟ□ﾟ;))
Delete this, delete this life. Delete my soul. I belong in the second circle of hell (Giving away all my lil writing details. Call it a teaser.)
This is why I can't reveal my ao3 account (when I finally make one) bc I just can't do realistic smee. IT'S BORIBG. Let's get a lil loose with physics, ya knowwwww, it's not weirdddd, it's hoooootttt
Like I kinda want to put my writings up here, but wattpads conditions are so vague... I just don't wanna risk it lol. I would lose so much art work if something happened to my book. Kinda sad. Also I don't trust wattpads age restrictions, but like... Like AO3 is any better... it sucks bc I was that kid that was running into 18+ areas and "bragging" about it like it was cool... ew, ya know? So should I just never publish... ughhhhhhh idk it all sucks, actually. There is no happy ending, let's be honest, this is the internet.
"This is your life. You can't live it for her."
"I love her."
OMG OH MY FUCKING GOD. AND WHEN HOUSE RELATED TO IT. Fuck he's doing drugs again. My lil druggieeee, just can't live with her, can't be sober without her. HE WANTS TO LIVE FOR HER, EVEN IF IT HURTS EVERYDAY, EVEN IF THE ONLY WAY TO STIFFLE HIS PAIN IS THROUGH DRUGS THWT DESTROY HIS MIND AND BODY. HE LITERAL CAN'T BE SOBER BC OF THE WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS TOO, UGH MY SWEETIE. Let lil ol' Lucas give ya the suck that beats the zuck. Sucking some fucking drugs straight from the source, A ZING! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
Watching House says it's OK for his ex-wife to work at his work place AFTER she said "You're the one. You'll always be the one." But she stays with her husband. And then he tries to walk fails and takes a pain medication he stole. THAT'S MY FAV LIL DRUG ADDICT. I WISH I DIDN'T RELATE TO HIS MAN. Also save him from his ex wife, she literally said "You're right, I'm not over you." LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN????? YOU HAVE A NEW HUSBAND??? This is why I can't date because imagine marrying them and You're not the one... like you're the lucky one, you get her, but House will always have her heart, and there ain't nothing you could ever do. You love someone who loves you, but buried in their heart is their first love. OSBDGISHDUSV Kinda poetic but like ugh, my heart. Tis it aches for loove
Period horny. JUST GINMIE SOME DIXK I JUST NEED A BIG OLD HOG FOR FUCKS SAKE.
I wanna dress up and get fucked in 26 different ways. Basically, just stick a dick in my ear and fuck my brains out bc sodhusbdusbsdhhdhd. I WANNA BITE A DICK, NOM NOM. GIMMMIIIIIIEEEEEE
Kuya: "You're not scared?"
Eiden: "What? Want to see me shaking in my boots?"
Me: Oh come on this is only a room 2 scene, this is like fluff lvl
OMG, SAVE EIDEN, HE'S GONNA FUXKING DIE. Ahhhhhhh
Am I gonna watch it still? Yesh
Do I feel all the blood rushing to my face... maybe it's just a skin condition so... The shivers too...
I CAN'T HELP IT KUYA SCARES ME AND... that's the best part, that's it he just scares me, he's amazing. Shiver me timbers ♡~♡
'Oh, Dutch.' TRAITOR: A person who betrays someone or something, such as a friend, cause, or principle.
'You know it, and I know it' FEAR: and intensely unpleasant primal emotion in response to perceiving or recognizing a danger or threat
"HE'S SICK."
"HE'S DYING." REDEMPTION: An act of atoning for guilt, a fault, or a mistake, or the state of having atoned. An act or the state of being rescued.
"He's... Talking crazy."
*The deer represents Arthur's sense of identity, as he's intimidating and big but ultimately the prey of manipulation.*