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Gosh, going through my art book made me so sad for a second, bc it's a bunch of vent art about someone and I didn't wanna upload those chapters, but after a while it just gave me this melancholy kinda feeling, like damnnnnnnn do I miss drawing. But it always feels like ppl don't enjoy my art irl soooo it kinda has always discouraged me. I mean my cousin used to be my lil cheerleader, I loved giving her my art, bc too much it felt like trash, but the fact someone else actually wanted it :( it made me actually want to make art ppl enjoy, but I also just don't really know how to do that. Fudge, why am I tearing up? Me and my relationship with Art are going through some rough patches lol

HOW CAN I REPLAU RDR2 LIKE THIS. I just listened to the audio of John's letter but omg... I just want them to live a happy family, I want to love and cherish them... but.... 7GH. Time never stops and in that sense. Time is like death.

Just started the intro to chapter 2 of Tell me why and... Thisintro is making me sobbbbbb omggggggg, I miss my lil cuz. It doesn't help that the girl character has her same name. Let's go back 10 years, ok?

Oh, Arthur... I was just starting to dream the silliest and softest of dreams~

Not me trying to push my bones into the proper place lmao. Maybe if I push my left rib inward and my right hip, rotated and scoliosis gone! Just gotta hold my bones in the right place for the rest of my life.
          
          Having someone break my back? No, scoliosis and a tail bone fracture has alright got it! Please don't break my back anymore than it already is, this shitz hurteddd

Not my niece absolutely clocking me for no reason 
          
          This morning she was like "You look like a man." And yeah, I am obviously female but see it from the back and I look like a man 100% ever since I was a kid ppl would accidentally call me a boy. Mostly bc I was so shy, I didn't let them have a look at my face lmao. 
          
          And now she just said "*Dead name* is a man!" GIRL!! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT OUTING IS AND YOUR ALREADY TRYING. Keep it on the down low! 
          
          And idk if it's suppose to be an insult like "You're not pretty like a girl, so you're a man??" Because I feel like if she thought I was ugly she would just say that, kids are wayyy to honest lmaoo. She is CONSTANTLY clocking me, so rude. I DIDN'T EVEN DRESS UP TO LOOK LIKE A DUDE, THIS IS JUST WHAT I LOOK LIKE LMAOOO And I dress like Adam Sandler if he dislikes baseball a lil more and liked yoai a WHOLE lot more.

Dad recommends movie. Seems like a man flick, but kinda good. Decide to watch it anyway. Main character looks like a straight man's wet dream, but she's cute. 2 side characters are gay, score. An extremely sad background character is announced, her story? HEARTBREAKING, her love interest? Main character. Lesbian Main character in an action movie. LETS GOOOOOOOO ABSOLUTE SCOREEEEEEEE. BUT OMG I ALMOST CRIED HER DEAD LOVER'S STORY IS SO SAD AND SHE'S NOT EVEN DEAD SHES JUST SUFFERING
          
          The Old Guard, btw.
          
          "He's not my boyfriend. He's all and he's more." OMG THIS MOVIE IS SO GAY. MY DAD RECOMMENDED ME THE GAYEST MOVIE LMAOOOK

Don't you love when you're just standing up walking and then turn around and the black edges start taking over you're vision until you're basically looking through pinholes and you almost fall over but play it cool. That's such a normal and cool thing to happen yay.

Sometimes I think I'm the worst person to have ever existed... and then my mom brings home a kitten who was stuck under a car. Literally like jumping outta my arms, scared and pretty sure this is the first time he's ever met humans and under an hour he's now purring SO LOUD and is trying to get my attention bc I'm typing rn and giving all my attention to my phone. Literally I placed him on my bed bc he kinda freaks out if you pick him up, and he INSTANTLY started purring. I knew right then and there... we're gonna be pals. HE'S LITERALLY MELTING INTO MY HANDS EACH TIME I CARESS HIS FACE. He might be a she, I haven't even checked bc at this age it's so hard to tell. And I think he pee'd on my bed, but ya know. Ok I gotta stop typing he's staring at my hands lol

When I try to gently rub his ear between my fingers like I've done for years, but I'm just petting a wooden box.