Rosalie (Previously Anastas1aWrites)

I feel like Im about to pass out
          Its been maybe 2 days since I ate
          I feel ugly every time I look at myself and its like a part of me knows I should be better but I can't
          My bff or bf are usually here when a feel like this but they're both on vacation so here I am

Hi! Thanks for the follow! If u dont mind me asking, what made u follow me?

How are u? 

Tysm for following meeee sunshine <3

What happened to your theme bb?

Hi babe how r you doing? 

So creeped out rn bc my grandmother keeps staring at me-
          Shes been doing it all day for some reason and its so uncomfortable
          I can't wait for next year when I don't live with her anymore bc she deserves to be in a mental hospital
          Shes the reason why my friends don't come over anymore bc shes creepy af
          Plus she may or may not have tried to kill me by putting glass pieces or shrimp (which I'm very allergic to) in my food
          Luckily tho ik how to cook so I jst make my own food most of the time and pretend like I ate what she made
          Shes also come and just stared at me when I sleep
          Like just standing there in the dark
          The first time she did that I screamed so loud bc I thought it was a demon coming to eat me- I have a very vivid imagination TOT
          Anyways atleast I won't have to deal with her anymore in about 4 months!

I have no clue wth is happening rn bc I look rlly pale and I'm shaking pretty badly
          Oh and my heads killing me
          I should probably go to bed after I finish studying-

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/jFvhLwvESTo
          My life in a nutshell

I'm so exhausted all the time recently bc my mom wanted me to start football practice and going to my horse riding classes more often and its the middle of my fucking exams- preboards for which I have to study 6+ hours a day, not to mention homework and babysitting and coaching- which is 8 hours long on weekends, plus we have our annual day coming up. All the cabinet ministers were forced to volunteer. My mom wanted me to be president to show it off so yea, and then our class dance has like 4 shows because its an hour long and looks pretty good, then I was just told by my coordinator that I have to sing for the school band bc I'm in a band, and theres also a kalarippayattu (Traditional stick fight) performance I'm in for which we stay till 7 at school and to top it all off I still have to make an effort to talk to my irl friends, and people ik on here and discord
          My bf doesn't count in this list bc he never ever expect smth of me. If I feel down, he'll stay still and let me be for ages, and listens to my long useless yapping when I feel excited.
          I feel so guilty abt whining abt my life like this when it could be way worse, but you know what, my conscience? You can go fuck yourself like most people in my life
          I don't think I can just keep doing this though, maybe its best I take a break from Wp and discord