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And it all always ends with "what is the point?" What do u get from pushing yourself through everything? Staying positive ? Staying strong? It always leaves u empty handed and number and overall with nothing but heaviness in ur heart.  Everything will change , it will take a turn but when? It never does.  It always leads to the same point again and again.  Same thing . It is pointless that ... We still try , try to think everything will turn and everything will be fine and just walk out way through it even if we know we are gonna fall again , in this hole , in this never ending loop called life.  Which leaves you numb and leaves only you to pick your own self every single time and let everyone else push and stab you every time . And we still without a support just rise back again cus we got no choice.  Just to go along with the loop untill it comes to an end ...

2025 just started and oht of nowhere I'm starting to drown in thoughts and the mind games came back ??? I'm trying my best to stay as positive as I can but fuck I feel so blue and grey man . Like actually 

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          I think it's obvious, but all the poets have their muse. It might differ based on the poem they write or it stays consistent all throughout. In the end, it all narrows down to a certain thing or a certain someone. But, you know what's interesting? You don't have to be a poet to have a muse. You can have a muse to keep living, to keep on walking towards the future. A muse to keep you breathing and smiling until the sun sets and also to keep you motivated enough to look forward to the rising one. Let's all keep working on ourselves until we find our own muse, yeah?

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          Anyone who wanna spam or write a message to me please go ahead !!! Thank you . Advance happy new year 

Bye bye bye . Take care everyone stay safe and stay totally wierd

And to all , put this damn thing we are using now away and you will know you don't even need it that much and know that it complicates even simple emotions 

Became 20, and I became emotionally and just in existence unavailable for lot of peeps like I'm sorry yet not sorry at the same time ? Like I think this is how it goes.  When I was 16 locked in corona and  was home every like thing and every conversation had my feelings depending on it.  But now I don't even have time or care to text my loved ones or talk to my loved ones.  I think that's how it goes.  It's hard wrapping ur own life in ur own time and it goes so fast. Like time just flies and you wouldn't even know if u ignored someone or you need to talk to someone.  I think this will end only when I reach my 40s.  I mean this is nice too . Just trying to live and doing things to survive and just live a "adult life".  It's fun.  You push your fear and do something even if it makes your stomach churn . It pays off at the end and I think it's nice 

Come back yah

Mwah 
          I wish you a great day 

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