-Blueberry_Mintae

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Ignore this I'm just venting to myself
          	
          	Why do I gotta fucking hate myself so much. 
          	
          	I feel like all my close friends hate my guts to the core, I feel like I can never talk to them because when I do they seem annoyed at me
          	
          	All I talk about is how annoying my family is and how much of a fuck up I am I bring nothing to the table of the friend group other then covering my insecurities with my high sex drive and some supporter 
          	
          	
          	I don't fucking do shit for them I have nothing to give to anyone or anything I honestly Fucking hate being here I hate the fact I can't do shit right i cant fucking harm myself right I can't even kill myself because I'm scared of the backlash 
          	I have a traumatic background that's caused me to fucking shut myself down when I'm getting negative energy and told things I don't wanna hear I'm so one tack minded I don't blame the people who find me annoying and fucking stupid 
          	I'm so fucking emotionally unstable
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-Blueberry_Mintae

Sad sap bitch.
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-Blueberry_Mintae

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I hate how I look how I talk how I act I hate how I have all these mental and physical problems, I feel like I'm calling for attention whenever i vent or rant when I don't even want the attention I just wanna be told im okay I just wanna vent but I can't vent to people individually or unless we're extremely close because I feel like in giving all this stress onto people who never fucking needed it 
          	  
          	  I can't do shit right for my family in general I let my grandmother down before she died I can't even stick to a hobby or clean a kitchen right
          	  
          	  I cant be yelled at because I'll cry then completely lose it because my heads spinning in twenty different directions from thoughts to the voices to whos yelling at me 
          	  
          	  I'm not surprised I'm the push away friend in groups who is only there to make others feel better
          	  
          	  Shit I can't even fucking do that idk what to say to anyone without tripping on my words I can't make anyone ever fucking feel better because I'm so God damn emotionally blocked and can't give advice because personally I can't even give myself advice I hardly know what to say 
          	  
          	  I don't want to be here when I have no meaning to anything, I feel empty at all times when I'm not talking to someone, then I get thinking and start crying because my head hurts 
          	  
          	  I can't explain how I feel other then I'm tired and have a headache I really just wanna fucking end it all 
          	  
          	  
          	  But I won't because I'm a pussy 
          	  
          	  Thank you I'm done
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-Incandescent_Blaze-

Maddddyyyyyyyyyy! I misses you!! Say hi on discord or something I haven't heard from you in a bit and I'm worried I miss getting to talk to you and to with you!!!
          
          
          Much love 
          
          ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
          
          -Felicity

-Blueberry_Mintae

this message may be offensive 
Ignore this I'm just venting to myself
          
          Why do I gotta fucking hate myself so much. 
          
          I feel like all my close friends hate my guts to the core, I feel like I can never talk to them because when I do they seem annoyed at me
          
          All I talk about is how annoying my family is and how much of a fuck up I am I bring nothing to the table of the friend group other then covering my insecurities with my high sex drive and some supporter 
          
          
          I don't fucking do shit for them I have nothing to give to anyone or anything I honestly Fucking hate being here I hate the fact I can't do shit right i cant fucking harm myself right I can't even kill myself because I'm scared of the backlash 
          I have a traumatic background that's caused me to fucking shut myself down when I'm getting negative energy and told things I don't wanna hear I'm so one tack minded I don't blame the people who find me annoying and fucking stupid 
          I'm so fucking emotionally unstable
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-Blueberry_Mintae

Sad sap bitch.
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-Blueberry_Mintae

this message may be offensive 
I hate how I look how I talk how I act I hate how I have all these mental and physical problems, I feel like I'm calling for attention whenever i vent or rant when I don't even want the attention I just wanna be told im okay I just wanna vent but I can't vent to people individually or unless we're extremely close because I feel like in giving all this stress onto people who never fucking needed it 
            
            I can't do shit right for my family in general I let my grandmother down before she died I can't even stick to a hobby or clean a kitchen right
            
            I cant be yelled at because I'll cry then completely lose it because my heads spinning in twenty different directions from thoughts to the voices to whos yelling at me 
            
            I'm not surprised I'm the push away friend in groups who is only there to make others feel better
            
            Shit I can't even fucking do that idk what to say to anyone without tripping on my words I can't make anyone ever fucking feel better because I'm so God damn emotionally blocked and can't give advice because personally I can't even give myself advice I hardly know what to say 
            
            I don't want to be here when I have no meaning to anything, I feel empty at all times when I'm not talking to someone, then I get thinking and start crying because my head hurts 
            
            I can't explain how I feel other then I'm tired and have a headache I really just wanna fucking end it all 
            
            
            But I won't because I'm a pussy 
            
            Thank you I'm done
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