TW! SH /WOUNDS MENTIONS
nobody talks about how it‘s such a struggle lying to your loved ones that you are clean again, i‘m like really living on the edge right now,
just yesterday my girlfriend walked in on me changing and she saw the cuts on my thigh and began crying and asked me why i didn’t stop when she told me to . that’s when I realized i actually didn’t know why i‘m even doing it , it feels like i have to do this because that’s the only way to make me feel something when im not around the people I love .
i know i‘m in no place to say this but please don’t let any type of harsh words get to you, it really amazes me how such little words can have such a big impact on your mental health .
i‘m really trying to get better and i‘m so so sorry to those i‘ve let down, please check on your loved ones .
love you all very much <333