I really don't know how to feel rn, my bsf has been feeling down lately and I've tried cheering them up, but it hasn't worked.
I had fallen asleep in a vc with them 6 hours ago, and in my server, she has written her suicide note. Now she hasn't been responding to me, and even though I know what has happened I don't want to believe it.
I don't even now since she had always kept me from getting depressed, and now that she.. I had a crush on her you know. We had promised eachother to stay together so we can grow old and die together, since I have a fear of being alone and forgotten.
I just don't know what to do anymore, and I'm not asking for help, or comfort, I just wanted to vent since I have no one to talk to nowadays.