hi everyone! i’ll be taking a hiatus, pero longer na siya than last time. i thought kasi nung nag rest ako a few weeks ago, kala ko ready na ulit ako gumawa ng books and updates like i do before, but when i came back i feel rushed rather than welcomed. i feel pressured kasi sobrang tagal kong na wala at nirush ko sarili ko na gumawa ng plots and chapters, it felt like an obligation to write for my readers. i lost myself, hindi lang sa writing but in my academics also.
i don’t want to be that writer that will force themselves to be that prefect author, ayoko, kasi i love my flaws. and being obligated to write is making me feel that way, na kailangan perfect ako to receive views, votes and comments. this is what i want, i want to write freely again. i want to make chapters that came from pure feelings and intention, not because someone asked me to make one.
writing is my safe place, my haven and i don’t want it to change, that’s why i’m taking another long hiatus. i need to find myself again, gusto ko mahanap sarili ko ulit because that was the best version of me. i have many flaws pero yun yung nag dala sakin to where i am now. in reality, i don’t care kung ilang mag follow sakin, kung ilan mag read, vote, comment kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na i love what i am doing. but currently hindi yun yung nasa isip ko, truthfully feeling ko i don’t deserve anything kasi na pilitan ako, i didn’t make such achievement because of the intention i want, na dala ako sa pag c-compare ng others.
kaya for now, this account will be inactive. i’m selfish, i know but this is the only way for me to comeback with a better alia. for those who know me personally or we chatted before, thank you being there for me. for my readers, thank you for making an era unforgettable. this is not the end, nor the beginning. we’re just getting to the best part :)