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Today is a day that is literally made to make single people feel like shit

I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE SINGLE

Welcome to "how to catch a pedophile:make emily uncomfortable edition" where I tell you things this 29 year old is saying to me, a 15 year old.
          
          "Is it bad if I want you?"
          "You would, wouldn't you?"
          ""
          "You're sexy and cute honestly"
          "I want you "
          "Wanna hook up?"
          
          Men, I AM NOT HOT ENOUGH TO GO TO JAIL FOR, GD

So I'm tryna start writing again for 2021. I barely posted anything throughout the entirety of 2020, and I'm disappointed in myself. I went back through some of my stories and began rewriting them. Most chapters are changed either drastically, minimally, or completely scrapped. So it may be confusing to continue reading when I begin uploading again, so maybe reread?? You dont have to, I'm sure You'll get it.

So remember a few months ago when I said I met a great group of friends? Well... turns out they weren't so great. Dont trust anyone y'all, it helps.

When he say he gonna send u a pic of his cat and he actually sent a pic of his duck walked up to the lemonade stand 

In one hour and 13 minutes, I'll be a year clean from self harm.

So alot has happened since I last posted anything. I got with a girl, broke up with said girl, my cousin died, I met my new bestfriend that I love unconditionally and I know he and i will be friends forever, tried weed for the first time with him (personal note, I AM THE DEFINITION OF BABY LUNG), had a little bit of an anorexic spell where I ate nothing and if I did I threw it up but it only lasted for two or three weeks, got confirmed to be transitioned out of alpha next school quarter, meaning no therapy every day but every other day so yay, also joined some of my dads bands as a singer for a few songs,  got another puppy, and I (tmi maybe) lost my virginity. So that's also yay, but not all it's made out to be.
          And in the future, my brothers birthday is tomorrow, I'll be going on a vacation with my best friend next week (if my grades are good my parents will let me go with him), I reach a year clean from self - harm on Halloween. So alot happened/is gonna happen.

I'm turning 15 tomorrow 
          Also I'm getting my nose peirced 
          I wasn't afriad but then my mom said "it's really gonna hurt" and I was like "you got yours done at a party of drunk girls and left me on the floor of the living room while you went to get it done, I'm going to a tattoo parlor. It will probably hurt alot less" 

"But I don't know
          If I should forgive,
          Should I just forget?
          'Cause I can't seem to get what you did
          I won't know
          If you ever cared
          Did you just forget
          F o r g e t  a b o u t  u s ?
          
          Did you even love us but couldn't show how?
          When you burned down our house
          Did you lose all the pain that you went through?
          And is it better now that you're gone?"
          -Clinton Kane, 2020