i feel broken, my heart hurts, my eyes are always prickling with tears, and somehow i still smile for everyone. i start crying when my teachers raise their voices and even when they say something nice to me, i still feel like i'm breaking slowly. i-i can't take the pain, my heart feels like someone is grabbing it with their fist and squeezing everything out of it, i just want to be truely happy again, is that possible, i-i just want to be happy...