Madison Horan

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Alright, now the serious truth. I hope y'all understand, and this is something I've thought about for some time, a long while before I even posted the LWB sequel.
          
          So, for a while now, writier's block has been my enemy for this profile for while now.
          
          I started to cry today after I got a comment on 1950.
          
          I love this account, I do, and I love yall who read my stories. Please believe me when I saw that.
          
          As of right now, I cant stay on this account. I have to leave for a while. But I wont be gone from wattpad. I'll just be on my other account and a new one I will be starting soon.
          
          I have so many fresh ideas that I just cant put on this account. I wanna start fresh. So that's why I'm on @NiallsLibrary and I'll have a new teen fiction account soon since I just got an idear the other night while listening to some music. I wanna try something different maybe, but I also really don't want to. So I guess I'm not sure yet.
          
          I love yall, I do. But I cant have this on my shoulders atm. I just cant. My writing would be shit and yall aren't here to read shit. I'm not here to write shit. So I'm doing this for yall. But also myself.
          
          I hope you understand. Because I don't. 
          
          Until the next day/morning/afternoon/night,
          ----Madison <3 <3 <3 <3

Here I go again. This time, idk what to say but I know what to say at the same time. Just bear with me?
          
          A lot happened since the last message. Well maybe not really but okay.
          
          I started tenth grade last week. That's really it, but it sucks so bad.
          
          My sister got grounded so I'm pretty happy about that. It wasn't me for once. 
          
          My mom is sick again.
          
          My dad got a promotion.
          
          And God screwed me over.
          
          So that's a summary, otherwise we'd be here all night.
          
          So I've gotten some comments and stoof. I really do smile when I get comments and stuff about my works. It really puts a smile on my face when I'm in a funky mood. So thank you to those of you who comment, you make my day when I open those email notifications.
          
          I'm gonna shamelessly self promote for a second. On the account @NiallsLibrary is a new story called RedRum I published three weeks ago I think? Maybe give or take a couple days. But's it's really fun to write.
          
          I'll send another message to explain this account. But go follow and check out that other account if ya could please. I'd appreciate it. It will also be on the side bar in the voted section so y'all can even do that if ya want.
          
          Also, I have a tweeter.... Yikes. So that's @/MadsMaryja on tweeter if ya wanna give me a follow.
          
          -Mads
          
          (Another message coming in a few mins)

If you go and follow me on tweeter comment 'balon' on one of my pics. I wanna see how many of y'all are creepin' 
          
          
          
          
          @/MadsMaryja

SORRY ONE MORE MESSAGE!!!!
          
          Does anybody know any good 1D stories, specifically Niall, about like two best friends. Like to me those are the cutest stories ever to read. They make my heart warm and fuzzy.
          
          Also, follow @NiallsLibrary is you love Niall as much as me. Honestly, Class A account :P

One last message for tonight....
          
          I have an announcement soon. 
          
          -Mads

I want to say a massive thank you to yall. The success of Life With Boys is insane. 44, 136 reads and counting? 1, 002 overall votes? I didn't expect any of this to go anywhere. I was just thinking one day and I started writing and for some reason yall like it. So thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love every single one of you. I laugh when I see some of the comments and say to myself 
          
          "This is something somebody said on my story. They can relate."
          
          That's one thing I wanna do with my life. Make people relate. I'm very opinionated. I'm very open with my experiences. That's why im going to be reaching out to people much sooner than I ever thought I would. I'm going to contact all my local radio stations and even people on YouTube. I want y voice heard. So if I can do that with a book, I can do it with anything.
          
          Four years ago I told myself I would never eat McDonalds again. For many reasons. 
          1) I got very sick the last time I ate it 
          2) The heath issues in my family is something I cant play around with I have to take care of myself and my body.
          3) I have a new body that I don't want to ruin over fast food. I love myself to much to do that.
          
          Bottom line, do what your heart and mind tell you to. If you have something you wanna do, do it. Reach as far as you can because nobody is going to stop you. Nothing is stopping me from what I'm doing. So go, make your dreams happen.
          
          On a much happier and less sappy note, I forgot to mention in my last message I got my permit!!!! Yep, I'm driving. Go me.
          
          That's all I think. 
          
          -Mads
          
          PS Follow me tweeter you can find me at @/MadsMaryja

Hiya. I feel I send a lot of these messages.
          
          So, I just have been living. I guess.
          
          This summer has honestly been fucking amazing. Sorry for my lovely words but if you met my family, you would understand. 
          
          I've had some rough spots through the summer but the big events or small ones that made my day and or week just made up for it.
          
          This last Sunday I went and saw One Direction LIVE!!!! It was an amazing experience. I almost cried when they came on stage and I DID cry when they sang DFWYB. I screamed my lovely head off and im still suffering the repercussions. My shoulders hurt from waving my signs and recording and taking pics. My right calf is burning from jumping around. It was just amazing. Four years I have been in this fandom and supporting these boys and it all paid off. I would see them again and have the same reaction time and time again. Just im speechless and could go on for ever.
          
          My neighbor is in the hospital cuz shes having TRIPLETS!!!! So due to some minor health concerns shes there until September. Shes gonna look at my oics and vids tomorrow hehe.
          
          What else.... OH! Dan Richards followed me on Twitter. Nothing big, just ya know, he answered my DM about the concert and ya I was pretty chill. I just lied. I laughed and cried and I have no idear why I did I just did and my friend watched me while I sat in my recliner like a fool laughing and crying. 
          
          So LWF I will update soon. Ive been busy and writers block is a bitch. 
          
          NIALL HORAN DAN RICHARDS AND JULIAN (I CANT THINK OF HIS LAST NAME) MET MY BASEBALL TEAMS MASCOT, PAWS, (TIGERS) AND THATS A DREAM OF MIE THOSE SONS OF PUPS FOUND MY BUCKET LIST I SWEAR TO GOD!!!!
          
          Niall did the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge & wore a white shirt god bless America. My sister nominated me today so I have to do it tomorrow morning.. Kinda irritated. 
          
          I have to send another message after this so if you read this thank you. Contact me if you have any questions comments or concerns.
          
          -Mads
          
          PS follow me tweeter @/MadsMaryja

Howdy!!! If you actually read this, you're ahead of the program. 
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          Sorry again for being MIA. Regarding the message from two weeks ago I believe, everything is better with my home life. I was able to get away for a while so that was good. And in actually doing something with my summer as well. 
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          I'm currently in drivers training for about two more weeks until I get my permit. But that shouldn't cause any issues. Also, this Thursday through Sunday, I will be camping with my Partner In Crime. So I most likely will not update. If there is wifi, I will probably be active on Instagram with my fan account (golden.niall) so you can follow that if you want. 
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          I also am currently working on a new story called Silent on my second account, @NiallsLibrary . So if you like the fluffy, awkward, cute type stuff, it's the story for you. I really like it and I hope some of y'all will check it out as well as my account. 
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          Life With Family WILL be updated at some point today. Today could also mean EXTERMLY early tomorrow morning. *cough* one am *cough*. I cannot sleep at night so it may work out in all your guys' favor. 
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          I believe I have touched base on everything I need to. If you have any questions, comments, or concerns feel free to contact me by DMing me on this account, @NiallsLibrary, my kik (real_wheels14), my email (MadsMaryja@gmail.com), or even Cambrie's email that is listed in my bio. 
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          Love y'all!!!!
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          -Mads

Hey guys. 
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          I'm so sorry I've been MIA. Just the last few days haven't been going well in my house. 
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          Don't worry I'm not tryin' to harm myself. I'm just very sad right now. My mom seems pissed at the world even more than she usually is. My dad is a grumpy old man. And surprisingly my sister isn't causing issues with me this time. 
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          I'm sorry everybody. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't let my personal like get involved in my writing, but there are those days that I just can't. 
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          I'm trying. I am. I'm trying to get out of my house for a couple days. Afterwards I may ask to stay at my grandma's for a while to just get away. 
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          Like rehab. It's my own way of rehab. Recollect myself this summer and find myself some more. 
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          I'm crying while I write this because I don't want to let you guys down. But my emotions are just outta whack. People think it's funny to mess with my emotions. It's very dangerous. I'm not safe to be around when I am like how I am right now. 
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          I hope y'all understand. And if you read this, thank you for taking time outta your day to read my rant. 
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          I want y'all to promise me that you won't others stand in your way. You can't. Be brave, and stand up for yourself. Take yourself outta the equation for a little bit to just put yourself back together. Don't make my mistake and bottle everything up. That won't help. 
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          Now, if I can take my own advice, hopefully I'll be back soon. 
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          I love every single one of you and don't lose hope. 
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          ----Mads