Greyson

Oh honey
          All I did was apologize 
          For the mistakes
          For the trauma 
          No I don’t want a relationship 
          Oh no I can’t have one again
          The pain
          The pain it caused
          You ruined it for me
          Not you
          Not them 
          Not her or him
          No one can enjoy me
          I’m closed off 
          I’m broken
          So say I’m lost
          Or it’s just a phase
          I’ve been hurt in the worst kind of ways
          I don’t wanna be touched
          I don’t like any affection 
          Not after that
          Oh the pain
          The pain I haven’t seen in months 
          It’s gone 
          Not to be brought back
          Some day
          Maybe one could catch my heart
          Maybe I’ll let them touch
          But today
          No one will have me their clutch 
          Don’t touch
          But I do crave for love 
          And the oh sweet clutch of the touch of the one I love
          No you can see my trouble
          I can’t love
          But I fall short every time 
          Due to the pain and trauma he’s given me

Dreams
          Oh so many dreams
          They scream for you to miss him
          They shout to you to remember 
          Remember him
          Remember his touch
          You miss the love
          The love that never ran away
          But you forced away 
          Yes I love him
          I always will
          But will he remember me? 
          Not in the same way
          Now I am a monster 
          A monster everyone sees
          I weep 
          As I watch him move on
          Oh whoa as me
          I made a mistake 
          I can never take back
          I love you
          Oh I love you so
          I love you so
          I love...you so

Secrets secrets SECRETS SECRETS STOP IT PELASE BE OPEN HE LOVES YOU ANY WAY 

I’m ready to die
          Oh look 
          I’m ready to DIE
          I fucked up
          Oh look 
          I fucked UP
          Kill me now
          Do it so
          Grey’s asleep
          I’m not so
          Kill me now
          Ha ha 
          KILL ME NOW

Holding your hand out
          He reaches to help you
          Pulling you up
          Out of the darkness
          Into the light
          Opening your eyes again
          Seeing what you were blinded to before 
          Seeing what you were missing
          A smiles spread softly across your face 
          As you stand strong and tall
          For the first time in years
          Maybe life isn’t that bad
          Maybe I can get through this
          Taking u steady steps forward 
          Watching him help guide you 
          Across the new land of beautiful new wonders

Midnight 
          Thoughts corrupt 
          Take over
          As you watch tears fall
          Down your sad face
          You you nervously scratch 
          Braking your skin
          Biting your tongue 
          So your cries for help are silent 
          Fighting the urge to give up
          Beating that urge to the ground
          As you weakly stand up
          And take what is trying to brake you 
          Failing
          Falling
          Crying
          There is only one that can help
          But don’t be a bother
          It might scare him off