offline 3/31/17

Still in my heart ya bastard 

Guatafak

I miss you babyboy

So I was in the middle of shitting right and then all of a sudden a mouse ran into the bathroom so I was trapped
          Screaming my mf ass off and I woke up the whole house lolol
          Wish you were here to laugh at me

Missing you, but hey
          What’s new :)

I graduate today
          Pretty nervous
          Be there? ❤️

I hate seeing your stupid hot face ugh
          I’m gonna risk my life and sanity, do some voodoo shit to get you back pft
          Asshole ;-;

Wish I told you when you were here 
          Wish you told me when you were here 
          Maybe things would have ended up different and I wouldn’t have to say ‘when you were here’ anymore 
          I love you ❤️

If you were still here I know I’d still be addicted to this site lol
          Moving on was easier because you’re gone, but tbh if you were still here I’d rather go through the pain of this toxic site just to be with you 
          Lord knows I would do anything to hear you call me daughter one last time
          I still can’t believe you left me, all of us but I guess you’re in a better place even tho I would much rather be selfish and keep you by my side at all times 
          I love you always, so so freaking much ❤️ Never will I ever forget about the one person I cannot get  over

Today is officially one year since you left us..
          You're a prick, Connor. But I love you. We love you, and we miss you so much.. I hope you're being stupid and immature with my grandpa.. You two loved each other so much. I thought I would be fucking broken today.. But I'm just pissed off. Why did you leave me? Why did you leave everyone that loves you? I'm ranting to an account that's not even here anymore.. It feels like forever. It feels like a decade has passed, I miss you so much Connor, it breaks me. But I know you're not suffering anymore, and it's a little selfish.. But why can't a girl miss her best friend in the entire world?
          Because of you being gone, I realized how shitty this world actually is. You wrapped me under a giant blanket, you protected me through everything.. I miss that protection.
          I met someone a few months ago, you'd love him.. He makes me happy.. Just like you did. I'm getting better, slowly but I am. I've tried to get over the fact that you're gone, but hell... I can't. I will never 100% get over it.. I miss you, Connor.. So much.. I miss that idiotic boy that always asked people that question.. "If I stuck smarties up my ass, would that make my ass smart AND smell good?" You were so ridiculous.. Or the times at the Scare-A-Torium, and we were the best duo because we ganged up on people in the asylum.. When we were really young, and you had an obsession with sticking shit up your nose.. I wish I could laugh, but I'm sobbing, writing down my favorite memories of being with you. Every day we had, was a memory. Remember when we went to the zoo, and you actually carried me on your shoulders, and we took a picture where we were touching noses, like Eskimo people.. When we were eating at a place right by the zoo and we got kicked out because you were cursing so much..
          I miss you, Connor. More than anything. It was hard to come back on your account, because I knew I'd start crying the moment I saw your profile picture, when I see your book covers.