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I wished I just kill myself already. Clearly that's what God wants right? I have no friends, I have no family, I have no car, I don't have phone service, I had to give up my dogs, I don't have a house anymore. I'm homeless. No one fucking gives a shit. It's all because my fucking alcoholic father hit me then went and told people I charged at him first. It's all fucking bullshit lies. I should just do myself and everyone else a favor and kill myself. Just get it over with. I grew up being the perfect child. I did everything for my parents and siblings. I was forced to clean the house for hours during the day simply because I was the only one that didn't have a job so I got a job and they made a joke of it because I worked at McDonald's. Then I got my own house which they made fun of because it was a trailer house. I can't fucking win in life. I hate it and everyone in it. Fuck everyone. I hope they all die and rot in hell. I hope their dogs gets ran over. I hope a hurricane destroys their house and everything they have. I hope their business fails. I hate this fucking world. You know what I actually hope my heart gives out and I die. Everyone in my fucking past has always 'worried' about my heart condition. Well you know what I didn't ask to be on this fucking earth. I didn't ask for my heart condition. I didn't ask for my chromosome disorder. Fuck you and everyone. I just want death. I just want to die. I just don't want to be here anymore.