I know that it's been three years, but I just want to check in to see if you're okay. I'm devastated about this loss, I'm so very sorry. Nothing that happened was your fault, alright? She's been in a better, happier place, watching you grow over all these years. Cyn, though I never did know her personally, seems like such a wonderful soul. May she forever rest peacefully.
Please, though it shouldn't have to be mentioned, don't forget about all the good times you had with Cyn. You've kept her memory alive on the internet, but this doesn't mean that her legacy is over. Although she may not be with us today physically, we all will remember her as a wonderful, talented, great person. We all have flaws. We should all remember that there are people with us that genuinely care.
Nobody here is alone, there's always help. Things will get better, we all have so much to offer.