2018 has been one of, if not the most difficult year of my life. Life threw me curve balls of depression, lost friendships, numerous crises, and other problems I’m trying my best to move past months and even years later. I often find myself wondering if any of this is worth it; if powering through my struggles is going to be worth it in the long run or if I’m just wasting my time and delaying the inevitable, whatever it may be. “Neon Gravestones” is a song that came to me when I didn’t realize I needed it, and it both broke my spirit while also beginning to heal the infected wounds the events of this year have given my psyche. I, as creators often do, took the meaning of the song and allowed it to inspire me to write something with a message I could have used when I first began feeling depressed and will most likely need to go back to as time goes on and I continue recovering. An earlier grave is NOT an optional way; I think everyone needs that reminder every once in a while, no matter how happy they are. Everyone needs a reminder that the world isn’t better off without them, no matter what. We can always start over every morning, every week, every month, and every year. We are more powerful than we’ll ever believe.
This was supposed to be a Halloween oneshot which would originally be posted on my other account @joshie-joseph , but I think it turned out much better this way. This is for anyone who needs it. Please adhere to the trigger warnings, and stay with me.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: mentions of suicide, drug use, self-harm, hospitalization, etc.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/172947886
