tw // vent
there has never been a time in my entire life where there wasn't a toxic person in my life. right now I have two my father and a "friend" who shall not be named. there is quite a bit of irony in the fact that we all as a group (including this "friend") decided to no longer have a different toxic person in the group. we literally left trash in favor of worse trash. and tonight we all have to go out as a family with my father. I don't want to go. I don't want to do anything with him. I don't even want to breathe the same air as him. I hate him. I just want a Friday night to myself.
lololololol I never use this anymore but it's good to have because I have 2 copyright strikes on my main somehow and if I get one more I'm probably done for and idk even what I got DMCA'd for lmao
my mother barged into my room and was like "let's put up your led lights" entirely unprompted during a day when I feel like shit and she does things that stress me out and overwhelm me and then I get a little bitchy and she wonders why. at least she was nice about when I told her we should wait until my room was painted. if she were my father I'd be sobbing within five minutes.
the day people realize that "ew men" jokes are actually a way of coping with the misogyny that is integrated in the fabric of our society and to feel some sense of power over our oppressors as people affected by misogyny and the patriarchy is the day I find peace
when I make ew men jokes I'm not trying to say that gay men are gross or that you shouldn't be a trans man I'm just making fun of my oppressors and one of the groups I have trauma associated with
I cant even use my vent account anymore because the person who causes me stress checks it all the time and I'm scared of blocking them because I'm scared they'll subtweet about me :/
I wanna mute someone because everytime I see a notif from them I get a sick feeling in my stomach but we're currently going back and forth in dms and I don't wanna look like a coward