mark left nct. im bawling my eyes as i type this out. surprisingly i got out of my bedrot crying and watch the recent NCT DREAM tiktok edits of mark leaving and my heart aches so much. i cant believe he left. he is one of my ults and i thought with jaehyun coming back in one month, it would sunshine and rainbows at least but not today. he is going to leave on april 8th officially. i was really hoping that it was an april fools day prank and korea was behind on the day but nope its real. he posted his letter in korean and english on his instagram. his last concert with dream, jisung was crying like the graduation concert where mark left for a while but now he is actually leaving. i was supposed to see mark in real life, and unfortuanely i cant. my heart aches that was my main comfort person, i miss when it was just the twenty-three of them, not worrying about lucas, that other man, sungchan, shotaro, and now mark. we just got to twenty-five just to down one. he is nct himself yet he left as the one the first. idk how im going to see taeyoung and johnny without him. there is so many questions left unanwswers and i just want mark to come back and say its a joke. however im hopig that this descion is his, not the company's, not fans', and not for others but himself. he was always vocal about how he feels busy due to his mulitple roles. and was voiced that whenever someone gives him compliemnts he doesnt take it to the heart bc he doesnt believe in himself like that. oh mark lee, you are always loved and i love him so much for everything he has done.