ellie! <3

quotes because shit has happened since i last did these
          
          ~~~
          
          *me and josh very casually making out in my kitchen (we thought we were home alone chat-)*
          
          my brother, loudly dropping his car keys, scaring the shit out of us: okay, what the fuck?!
          
          josh: she just had a fly down her throat-
          
          me: joshua i swear to god-
          
          josh: oh i love the sound of my name on your tongue, could you say that again for me princess?
          
          my brother: aaaand that's my cue to leave, use a condom please!
          
          ~~~
          
          *during a mock trial*
          
          josh: so did you kill him?
          
          me, whispering: why the fuck are you asking that, he's guilty as shit-
          
          ~~~
          
          josh: im here if you even need to yap about your feelings-
          
          me: you're about to be feeling something up your ass-
          
          ~~~
          
          me, shivering because i intentionally didn't bring a jacket today: motherfucker it's cold out
          
          josh, already taking his hoodie off: you're lucky i decided to wear a shirt under this today-
          
          me: lucky? shit i wanted a strip show-

ILY

:3

wanting to check up on them knowing that you're the last person they'd want to talk to and that they undoubtedly hate you now :/

You alright...?

Licks your forehead 

fucking fuck my friends are all metaphorically punching me in the gut this week holy shit-
          
          ~~~
          
          me: im literally nothing without you guys, like seriously, im just a fucking sack of bones without yall-
          
          ryan: which means your everything when you're with us, elles
          
          ~~~
          
          LIKE WHAT THE SHIT MAN?! GOD WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE RIGHT ALL THE TIME
          
          no im not actually pissed, it's just hard to try to change my perspective about myself when ive gone so long believing that im nothing and that i deserve nothing, and finally having people in my life who tell me otherwise 
          
          it's all apart of the long process of trying to be alive tho, and it's working so far, so ig i can't complain?

"falling in love with you was the easy part, it was convincing you to stay that was hard"
          
          aw what the hell man, now im crying again

hugs from behind, forehead kisses, piggyback rides, forehead flicks, tugging on belt loops, arms around shoulders, shared smiles across the room, the fucking eye contact
          
          holy fuck im in love with this man and we're not even actually together yet-
          
          anyways, how are you all?

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          Istg Saturdays suck without you
          Also Ethan said something extremely gay last night to your brother