idk how many people will see this but chat i need HELLLPPPPPP. life is starting to feel like paper rings by taylor swift which is both good and bad. basically here are the people to remember: the boy (we'll call him 4), my bsf sav, a girl (we'll call her em) and ME.
about a year and a half ago i dated 4, but we broke up. then he went on to date em, and they broke up not too recently but not too long ago either. sav has a boyfriend who is friends with 4, and she said she asked him if he liked anybody. she said he got all weird about it and she eventually got it out of him, saying there was one person. she asked if it was em, and he goes, "no, but you know her. very well, actually." then he jumped into this whole thing about "idk if the girl i like will take me back after everything that happened." sav said, "why wouldn't she?" and he replied. "well, she's already told you everything. if anyone would know, it's you." when she told me that my heart DROPPED. apparently he wasn't opposed to dating again, but the problem is that i'm friends with em. like we are GOOD friends. idk if i could do that to her, but in hindsight, she did do it to me first. i don't wanna seem petty but i'm not sure at this point.
i've missed 4 for a while now, especially after rereading my favorite books (lynn painter's books). he'd always teased me for reading them but he was quite literally MY wes bennett (iykyk): plays baseball, dark haired, TALLLLLLLL, gorgeous. i just finished nothing like the movies last night, so maybe that's why.
anyways idk what to do so if you have help, i'd love to hear it!!!!
