𝗳 𝗶 𝗰 𝘁 𝗼 𝗽 𝗵 𝗶 𝗹 𝗶 𝗰

another LONG hopeless romantic crumb cause i actually rly liked doing it the 1st time
          	song: the sick - bella kay
          	
          	lyrics:
          	"I hope ur daddys done hatin u
          	The apple doesnt fall far from the tree"
          	- mc thinking abt how her paternal grandpa seems to hate her father, like how she feels like her father hates her
          	
          	"u think that shit u smoke saves u
          	But it wont between u and me"
          	- mc thinking abt her father's smoking habits when he's stressed with work
          	
          	"And I think part of u hated me
          	So, all of me was survivin u"
          	- mc thinking her mother hates her and how mc has to live with that knowledge
          	
          	"There is nothin better I could be"
          	- mc being the best she can and it still not being good enough
          	
          	"I love the sick because I have to"
          	- 'the sick' being her parents and how mc feels like she still has to love them because theyre her parents
          	
          	"u were wrong for what u did to me
          	But I was sick for kinda likin it"
          	- with how mcs parents constantly bragged about her but only in the presence of someone else. because to her, at least it meant that she was doing something right to be praised like that, even if it was only for show
          	- ootp... (NO SPOILERS)
          	- deathly hallows (no spoilers)
          	
          	"Oh, it all goes bad eventually"
          	- deathly hallows...
          	
          	"Ive loved the sick since I knew how to breathe"
          	- mc loving her parents since she was born
          	
          	"Im pretty sure that ur usin again
          	Oh, u dont know what that does to me
          	Well, I guess I can never save u"
          	- ik using is in context of substances, but for mc, its about how her fathers smoking again and how that leads her to hating the smell of it because the smell always reminded her of her stressed father, but she knows she can never do anything to him
          	
          	"I hope u settle with that girl u love
          	And get that shitty job I know u need
          	I think that she might be enough to save u
          	And Im sorry that that wasnt me"
          	- mc thinking about theodore and his new beauxbatons girl, and how that girl might be enough to change his dating habits
          	- other stuff in ootp... (NO SPOILERS)