-flowerbrook-

im so damm bored, anyone wanna talk or literally anything idc

-flowerbrook-

Happy national coming out day!
          
          Two years ago today I posted that I was bisexual, that was when I was first figuring out I was anything but straight. About a month ago I came out to my immediate family as bisexual, they were accepting and I now have the inclusive pride flag hanging in my room. Other than my parents and siblings, a couple cousins, and my friends, I have been very open about it though so I’m looking to change that. 
          
          However, for the past couple months I think I’ve been more comfortable with the label queer. I don’t use it with anyone I know irl, my boyfriend doesn’t like that label for whatever reason and I don’t think my parents would understand,  so I’m using it in certain online spaces. 
          
          Hope you all have a good day! :)

-flowerbrook-

I didn’t realize how much staying in a toxic friendship would affect me and how I interpret things or react or just think in general. I’m starting to realize now, that because of her I can’t open up to people without feeling guilty or taking into account that they’ve had it worse so my problems don’t need talked about. I compare myself to everyone, cause even though she wasn’t doing well in school either and always asked me to help or do things for her she still made fun of me for failing during my worst time. She still told everyone I didn’t want to know that I failed a class they all passed and said was easy. My bf texted me “bye bye” after our call tonight, and because it wasn’t something he usually said over text I immediately started to panic and think something was wrong. I’m terrified everyone is going to leave me, because every time she befriended someone else suddenly they were everything to her and I didn’t matter until they left and then she came back to me and I had to keep her from trying to end her life. My bf was having a bad day a couple weeks ago and wanted to end his life, and because I was so used to not being enough to convince people not to attempt all I could say was that I needed him and I knew that it wasn’t much but I needed him to stay, and for once it was enough to someone. She would make fun of me because I don’t have curves, always saying that she doesn’t really have much but at least she wasn’t as flat as I was. Maybe that’s why I hate my figure so much.

-flowerbrook-

@lowkey_avacado
            You have no idea how much all this meant to me, I really appreciate that you took the time out of your day to say the things you did. I really, really appreciate it. Thank you so much. 
            
            Also if you still want to invite me to that roleplay, I’m bored and I’m need of something to do :)
            Thank you again, you’re an amazing person. Friends?
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lowkey_avacado

And finally, I'm glad you said this. Don't be scared to speak up or ask for help. I've had toxic friends and I know how terrible they are. I had a friend who was a  manipulative, untrustworthy, backstabbing gaslighter. The only reason I got out of that was because someone else helped snap me out of it. When I realized how toxic they were I immediately distanced myself. I have never regretted that decision since and you shouldn't regret your's. I'm sorry this was so long haha, I didn't mean to blow up your phone :P I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm here if you ever need to talk to someone.
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lowkey_avacado

@-flowerbrook- Fifth of all, I don't have curves either. I'm a skinny twig-child who is constantly surrounded by round and chubby people. Don't worry, I've heard it too "You have no boobs" and "You have no butt". Don't let it get to you. All body shapes are beautiful. Sixth of all, I used to struggle with apologizing too. I would apologize for things all the time, even if it wasn't my fault. The only way to stop this is my reminding yourself that not everything is your fault. This will take time to get over as it's a rather difficult habit to shake, but I'm confident you can do it. Seventh  that girl was not right. I'm pretty dang sure she hasn't been right about anything ever, especially you! You are clearly a wonderful person and a wonderful friend and she took that for granted. If your boyfriend breaks up with you for those reasons then he doesn't deserve you. Eighth, never EVER be afraid to tell someone no. I get how hard peer pressure can be, I've dealt with it myself and it sucks tremendously. If you tell someone no and they get upset, that's their problem. You have the right to say no and they're just getting mad because they aren't having their way. Nineth: don't stop speaking up about what's important to you. They do matter. You matter. Your feelings and thoughts are valid.
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-flowerbrook-

Project Pridefall: LGBT please read. 
          
          Project Pridefall starts on June 1st and is a project that homophobes, transphobes, and assholes are using to seriously harm LGBT+ people. 
          
          They are going to target lesser known LGBT people on any social media and harm them. Their plan is to start and get worse as pride month progresses. 
          
          They will send hate, videos of r-pe & m-rder among other things. They’re threatening to dox people to get phone numbers, addresses, and there’s great risk of m-rder, r-pe, and kidnapping. 
          
          Please spread this everywhere you can. They’re supposedly attacking allies too. If you associate with LGBT in any way, make your accounts private, disable dms, uninstall apps. Be very cautious. This could be serious, please spread it.

-flowerbrook-

Is there a way to get diagnosed for depression, anxiety, etc without going to a doctor and without parents knowing? I’ve told my parents I’m almost positive I’m depressed a couple times in the past few years and they don’t believe me. I just want to be diagnosed if it’s something I really do have.

-flowerbrook-

I cut off my toxic ex-best friend, and I think it’s had some effect on how much happier I’ve been. I‘m so thankful to the friends that helped me stand up for myself and gave me the confidence to finally get myself away from her.

-flowerbrook-

Homecoming is tonight, I got my dress this morning. I put it on and looked in the mirror and for once I actually felt pretty, I liked the way I looked even though my hair wasn’t brushed and I hadn’t been out of bed for long. I started crying, I never thought I’d make it this far, I never thought I could like myself again. It does get better.. it really does ^^

-flowerbrook-

Also I’m 3 months clean, and threw it away. That might not matter to anyone else but it’s a really big deal to me
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-flowerbrook-

Does anyone know any kind of tricks to fall asleep faster? I have to get up at 8 tomorrow and I can’t sleep

-zephyr_

→@-flowerbrook- ! 
            
            blink really fast until you can't anymore , close your eyes , and then relax . it usually works for me
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Empress_Of_Twilight

Close your eyes. Breathe in for five seconds, hold it, then exhale for five seconds
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