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alright , final decision is made .
          i want to say goodbye to this
          account officially since i’ve been
          off from it for god knows how 
          long and it sucks . i have lost
          interest and cannot capacitate
          the whole entertainment vibe 
          since it takes a lot of time and
          hardwork and sometimes people
          don’t even care or credit you 
          enough for it — but this was all for
          my passion and integrity towards
          such apply-fictions ! i will have the
          username saved in hope that 
          maybe some of you still want to
          keep in touch . i have a spare account
          that will be my main account hereon ,
          so once it is ready and up , i’ll surely
          leave the username for you or maybe
          you will stumble upon me without
          knowing !
          
          i will forever miss and love
          all the people who became
          a part of ikigai and then my
          life , please take care of 
          yourself and know that i love
          you all very much so and it is
          hard to say goodbye ✨✨☺️

oh lookie yay i waited for you until you were online and ready to delete me.
          
          so i'm not going to lie ,, i've been a absentee wife, friend, and boyfriend to lyun and i suck because i forgot that it was your birthday which is not a shock since i barely remember my family's birthday but a horrible deed nevertheless. i've been pretty much a bitch ,, one that isn't worth it of having you around especially since i kept on shutting you down whenever you said you loved me and i never really initiated the conversation with you. 
          
          i'm sorry that i've been in a bad mood everytime we talked and that there are times where i just shut down and push people away from me ,, not caring if they actually cared because it's a flaw of mine . . . being irrevocably selfish and self centered [ i'm not proud of it ] and no words can explain how thankful i am for having met you.
          
          i'm sorry that i can't say i love you as often as you do me because i've been hurt before ,, i'm sorry if i push you away when you've been trying to talk and i'm so sorry for being a horrible person in general that i just feel so damn bad. leik god , i don't deserve having someone like you caring for me.
          
          but i just wanted to say thank you for one thing, thank you for being mia.
          
          you know, the one that taught me crash course smut. okay ,, not that but thank you for staying with me even if i was being a bitch. thank you for listening to my rants literally sometimes. thank you for saying you love me because god knows ,, i rarely hear that. thank you for  hyping me up whenever i was degrading myself. and thank you so so much for trying your best to comfort me and push these stupid walls of mine away and trying your best to understand me.
          
          i haven't been the best and i don't think i ever will be the best but i'm thankful and bless to have met you mia. and i don't say this often but i love you and i'm sorry for being such a horrible person.
          
          belated happy birthday !!
          
          — aili

Happy birthday! ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

happy birthday ! always be happy and never give up uwu !

HAPPPPYYY BIIRRTTHHHDDAAYY!!!!!

thank you to those
          kind people who 
          actually remembered
          my birthday , i’m so
          grateful — i cannot express
          it in enough words ♡♡♡♡

omg that theme tho ~

why you always gotta attack my heart uwu

i love you too :((

death is disturbing,
          but death is an inevitable happening,,