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Okay so I know this isn't something 'important' but I just really need to talk about this and I don't feel like talking about it irl. I've been having a lot of problems with my mum. She's constantly yelling and putting me down. I've been on holidays lately and stay home alone while she works. She never asks me to do anything but when she gets home I get screamed at. She calls me things like a lazy brat and that I never do anything. She gets mad at me for practically just showing emotions and mocks me constantly but when i stop showing emotions she ridicules me. She gets mad and says I never leave my room but is always so rude when i say almost anything around her. She's been way too open w/ me all my life but at the same time has been pretty emotionally distant and i think that may be one of the reasons I can't keep friends..? I remember this one time I started having a small panic attack in the bathroom cause I had had a really bad day w/ my 'best friend' blocking me on everything and mum just pushed me. After I calmed down a bit I walked at and mum was just like 'what was with you crying in the bathroom?' like she didn't even care. Dont get me wrong there are still good times we have together and all that that feels like we are just a simple mother and child but when she snaps at me it really hurts. I dont really know if this can be considered verbal abuse since she is pretty alright but I really just wanted to get this out of my system.
