@castingshadows-
/ ; definitely not already sobbing
it was strange to know you were dead , obviously . to know that you weren't a person anymore . you were just ,,, gone . but it was exactly how he had imagined it . johnny had always believed in heaven , and only heaven . he had always believed that when you died , no matter what , things were okay . things got better . no matter what you did ,, you ended up pure and happy . and it was almost completely true . though most didn't end up ' happy ' depending of their previous lives , seeing those who had also passed was a plus . seeing family , friends . hell, he even got to see dallas .
he was ,, certainly upset about not being able to see red and the gang . but in a way , red especially . he had obviously seen her as a parental figure , and that was still the case in his after - life . he knew she was suffering . he could feel it , and it broke him . there was no way he wanted her to be in this much pain , and would do anything just to tell her it was alright . anything . to be a person again , and to go give her the biggest hug his little arms could manage .
despite his strong emotions , being an angel had a particular perk . it lasted about a week , but he was capable of getting back to the world and interacting with those who remained alive . this was a little quirk he'd found out about just today , and god , it had been the best news that he'd heard in awhile .
he was going to use it . no doubt .