-johnsbanana-

ew, i'm catching feelings for someone i can't have :(

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                 ❝ on days I hate being myself, 
                 days I want to disappear forever
                    let’s make a door in your heart
           open the door and this place will await
          
                               it’s okay to believe, 
                the magic shop will comfort you. ❞
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                as we go into the new month, 
          a lot of times we set new goals and 
               our hope is refreshed, and it’s a 
           beautiful thing but sometimes those 
            hopes don’t come true and we find 
            ourselves once again crushed by the 
                         weight of the world. 
                                        please...
                                 set those goals. 
                              believe in yourself.
                          but also know that if it 
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                                  you’re not alone. 
                 i’m always here and i’m sure you 
          have many others backing you up as well 
                          who will be there for you if 
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-johnsbanana-

this message may be offensive
Dan Howell's video inspired me heavily, so I'd like to make a statement. 
          
          You are valid. Whether you are Gay, Lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, heterosexual, transgender, nonbinary, genderfluid, or a fucking houseplant.  Whatever you identify as, if you are out, if you are in the closet still, you matter. Other people ARE going through the same type of things you are. You are NOT alone. If you are struggling, reach out. The trevor project, suicide hotline, and teenline has many hotlines at least in the US. If your family isn't supportive, try talking to trust adults or close friends. And if none of these are options, feel free to reach out to me via PM or my Instagram (listed in bio). I am willing to help. 
          
          If you aren't struggling but see people who are, reach out! Be that lifeline. You never know how close people are from making a rash decision. One smile, one offer to hang out, standing up once can make a huge difference in someone's life. 
          
          I'd also like to speak from personal experience. I am a bisexual woman. I am attracted to males and females equally. I also have huge privileges being white in Northern America and having a very supportive family. I was able to come out when I was only in the 4th grade to my close friends. Publically, however, as being openly comfortable with my sexuality in middle school, I was ridiculed. This was humiliating and hurtful just the same. Even with having the supportive family I do, I was too afraid to tell them. I was the kid in the "gay emo" crowd. I struggled with selfharm, depression, and suicidal thoughts from a young age (not only from just being openly LGBT, I also had other issues). Several years later, I've made it through these trials largely due to the support from family and friends. I couldn't have done it without looking for help.
          
          So please, please, please, get help if you need it and if you see someone who needs help, reach out! 
          
          Thank you all, I love you, you incredible brave humans. 
          
          

--CloudWatcher--

@Queen--of--kurtz Aww man, I needed to hear this. Everything's been feeling like too much to handle. But it felt really nice to hear this. So thank you. : )
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-johnsbanana-

I stayed up for Inkigayo! ITZY won! I was so proud! Every group performed amazingly! I can't wait to see more of all the debuting groups! My favorites were Jus2, Ravi, ITZY, G-IDLE, TXT, MONSTA X, Jang Dong Woo, Hong Jin-Young, Loona, SF9, Ha Sungwoon, and N.FLYING! There were so many more but those were my favorites!  I hope everyone sleeps well/Has a good day! Eat well, stay healthy, I love you!