@-kiyue
im leaving wattpad for 40 days or maybe forever bie friends and all and everyone
Everything will be fine lil fairy♡
Take care of yourself
And come back anytime you want to talk to us
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@-kiyue oooo that's kind dearu...
@bunnykookjklove & @-Ravenette- .. "suddenly get away" i ask texted him as "?" he said get awayyy !!! i felt like dying yesterday night i just my fear felt so real cause as someone an weakling like me should not ask never ask for romantic love ! ( but i still dont understand did he said that cause he truly felt it not likeing it ? or did he told me that cause he is feeling guilty cause of my efforts and purity ? and ontop of his health overwhelming him?" ... ? idk what it is ! i .. blocked him but i unblocked him again and deleted instagram completely ! ... ( idk .. the thing is i cant even study much due to having hole in my brain ) im not angry at him im not mad at him its just .. i feel it is better to be an "nun" in church taking care of innocent babies but still Jesus told me to pray for him , so even if what ever he can do im thinking of fasting so his leg could heal and he get rid of the dangerious situation i wont text him or be in contact with him till last day of his operatation , until then if he tried to act bad to push me away making excuses cause of his health he will realise the efforts i kept for him but if he is fake let it be ! i will wait one month and if he is fake i will just simply chose to be an "nun" in future if he is the one he would come back himself if he is not he will leave let him be ! i will focus on making myself happy ( im an women with really low sexual or romantic feelings so its fine for me eaither way )
@bunnykookjklove @-Ravenette- !!!! he yesterday night texted me as like im batman i found it funny but then he asked me as i want strawberry i asked him what is it ? he said i know u know it ? i was confused and sent him strawberry emojis he said not them and told me my lips looks gorgious ! i was like u want cheek kiss ? he said no ! im so borning and i told me as i told u right i dont know how to do those stuff im exteremly submessive and babish and cries alot ! he said stop being an baby i told him im babish he sended me rolling eyes emoji so i sent him an voice mail as crying asked me as "are u crying ? im sorry if ur not comfortable with sexual conversations" i told him i told even before u right ? "yup i told him in past to he agreed to them and said nothing wrong in that" , he sended me text us .. ur beyong perfect for me its just me is stupid ! then i told him as im sorrie he said "i even need pacifer during intimates times due to having hole in brain to cope with pain thats how fragile am thats why i was always been afraid for asking for love" he said
@bunnykookjklove & @-Ravenette- !! so there is this guy whom i met on insta i told about him to Ballerina princess , his name is Ethan ! he said he lost his parents in childhood and his granny raised him and she died in covid time then his elder brother took care of him , !! at first i brother zoned him , but i slowly found it out he likes me due to my personality and kindness but scared to say it to me , from the beggining he talked with me he always been polite and gentle ! he came into my life when i was praying to Jesus as let ur will be done father whom u going to send as my man ( honestly i felt very much peace around that guy ) ! so i kinda asked him do u like me please be honest he said .. he was hesitating and .. that like "we should be friends , and if i can want we both can be in tempoary bond" but as i kept going he slowly confessed me that his brother wont accept and due to religion and country difference !! but .. i talked with him even more he said that ( he dont want to hurt me cause he is afraid cause he got leg injury the doctor told him that there are chances of him losing an leg or even die and if he do his brother sending him to paris for higher studies )i said that i can wait 2years i can wait no neeed of rushing things i said i dont matter to me if he lose an leg i can still care for him as im someone who had open heart surjury at four and been born with hole in my brain . ( he looks good but he didnt showed not even an bit of pride about his looks to ) . !! ( he slowly told me he is getting more addicted to me and he is afraid of hurting me he was saying it again and again he used to say i dont know what could happen in the future , he telling me u dont understand my situation ) !! so told me let be like friends i told him sure okie for now i will wait for him but when he comes back to me i will welcome him back with same love .
i dont deserve love an pathic living creature with health issuies related to brain and heart i dont even deserve to be loved :< ....
@bunnykookjklove u will pray for himmm ?? thanks u thanks uu so much thanks u alot if u do ! thanks u
@bunnykookjklove @-Ravenette- @ShashiGautam666 the thing is im not going to live more then four to five years !! im not sad about it but if he lose his leg and effect his life time to i would still take care of him
@-Ravenette- nods head i will send him final message and block him if he is alive and love me and stay alive he will find me and will not be afraid of his brother or what ever ! but i will tell in that last text us i will give u three months of time if u dont find me well fine i choose different path in my life ! but if he is healed or maybe lose his life :< ... ! i want him to get better not just cause i want him as an partner but as he is an human .
What's up bun?