It's been a few days since the sad news.
Technoblade's passing was hard for me, especially since it was days before my finals and my stress levels were through the roof.
I remember that night, when I saw the notification and the title.
so long nerds with a black screen.
When I saw it, I felt ominous. Like I won't like what I will watch. And I was right. When all I saw was a older man, someone I have never seen before, that's when I knew.
I felt sad at the end of the video, for him, for his dad who obviously kept it together during this video, for his whole family and those who were close to him. I know the feeling of losing someone.
Although I wasn't that much of a fan of Technoblade, I really find him a cool YouTuber, I love his sense of humor, his voice, his laugh and his rambling about myths and such.
Those following hours after the news of his death, I kept thinking of the future.
'Technoblade is dead' is what that keeps repeating in my mind, and my chest always felt heavy, like something is squeezing my heart. It was a dull yet painful.
There will be no more of his humor, no more of his content. I was in denial for a bit, until I decided to write this as a way to say goodbye to him.
I have accepted his death. I haven't moved on yet, but I will, soon.
Technoblade, thank you for the memories, for the content that cheered, inspired and helped a lot of people. For the endless laughter and unforgettable moments you shared through your videos and stream.
I hope that right now you are sitting on the throne of God, after you beat him.
As you should.
Thank you once again, Technoblade.
And may you rest in power.