-lovehoon
is this the downfall of -lovehoon?
-lovehoon
-lovehoon
i’ve gotten so low to the point i sexualized myself just to feel some sort of love for my body. All my life anything i’ve ever heard from anyone was how disgusting my body was and how ugly i am. all i ever wanted was for someone to not hate the way i look. I expose myself and lose all my self respect just for a reaction, but it’s a reaction i’ve craved for for years. The feeling of someone actually liking the way i look even underneath the layers of clothes i cover myself with felt good, but now i just feel sad. I can’t get any of it back, and it’s my fault. He never asked, never begged, never demanded anything. I was the one begging to be loved, even if it was just for my body. Even now when i cry about it, i still can’t help but remember how good it felt to be complimented on the things i hated the most about myself. younger me would be disappointed in what i’ve become.
-dollyellie
@-lovehoon i'm so so so so sorry you feel like this ml :( some people just genuinely want to feel loved no matter how or what form it is. you're body isn't disgusting—its unique, and you should feel comfortable in it and not uncomfortable. you aren't ugly—you're beautiful, inside and out. and while you or other people may not realize it, everyone has a special spark in them that makes that person, well, them. people hating on the way you look is something you shouldn't worry about, because why give one person or a group of people when almost 8.5 billion people don't know you exist. sure it's hard to ignore, but try to ignore them, don't let them have that satisfaction knowing their words affect you. knowing that someone used you or liked the way you look underneath is obviously not a good feeling—and while it's never happened to me, i've had friends who have had that happen to them, it's awful and i can understand if it makes you want to scrub your body or crawl in your skin. its valid, completely. i just want to let you know, i hope you get better, genuinely, and i know we don't know eachother, but i do hope you know that i care, whether or not you realize it. anyway, get better <3 xx, ellie <3
-lovehoon
they’ll ban tiktok but not guns…okay…
onlydenverJ
Literally, they care abt their gun rights more than the effects they’re causing on the people they kill, and obv the school shootings mean nothing either right?
-lovehoon
“goodnight my pretty girl” ok now take off your clothes
hanjis_luv
@-lovehoon whoooooo omg I'll explode if I don't hear the full story in 0.00000000008 seconds
-lovehoon
just spent 50$ on four things i might as well just kms
-lovehoon
why is he confessing to me someone help
-lovehoon
ugh men
-lovehoon
he was being so sweet i actually cried
hanjis_luv
@-lovehoon then spill the whole thing. I NEED TO KNOW. (u don't have to btw it's ur own personal life I'm just happy 4 u that u have someone❤️)
-lovehoon
i’m drawing jay chat
-lovehoon
artist kam is back