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i should be the type of boyfriend to check up on my girlfriend everyday, hold her when she needs me most, kiss her goodnight.. every night and just remind her that i love her unconditionally. but no, i'm the type of boyfriend that talks to my girlfriend once in a while, holds her once i'm back online, kiss her when i feel like it and tell her i love her when i think it's appropriate.
that right there is so fucked up. i told myself that i would be a better boyfriend and be there for my babygirl, but instead i'm sitting on my lazy ass, drinking any kind of alcohol i can get my hands on. ash deserves so much better and i am horrible to just let myself drink away my problems.
i know if i don't get my shit together, i'm going to end up hurting someone that i love so much.. it's crazy.
i can't even explain my feelings for this girl, she is so fucking incredible.
i am so in love with her and i'm just letting her slip through my fingers.