-mcstarr

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hi. I've been feeling very unmotivated and bad lately. it feels like I'm just a body without soul. I've got a my very first job outside my internship and it's quite stressful. 
          	
          	I'm still a student but I've got a background of video editing and stuff. this job has taken a toll. i consider myself as a very mood-driven soul. when i tried to edit, i tried to connect with the song and the visual. this job however has been hard. i can't connect with the song at all and the visuals are hard to find. 
          	
          	my client didn't leave any details on what he wants, so it's quite hard for me to go without any inspiration at all. not to mention that my client is my sister's boyfriend. 
          	
          	and to add to the stress, it's been 3 weeks and i only had 3% of the edit done. he didn't gave me any deadline and it's stressing me out. 
          	
          	to add to the stress again, i had started my 3 weeks of college. i go to an art institute, and lemme tell you every project and homework are EXPENSIVE. 
          	
          	however, i didn't get any job done. i can't even take myself out of the bed. I don't know what to do and the only escape is reading fanfictions and writing. the worst thing is, it didn't gave me much dopamine anymore. it only waste my time. 
          	
          	i had considered talking to therapist to help my anxiety that i had for the past few years and maybe gave me answers for my condition right now but they're expensive as fuck that i consider take an easy way out. 
          	
          	i have no one to talk to, my sister is always busy, i tried to talk with my parents they only tell me to pray more as if it would help me. it's not. i tried to talk to my friends earlier but they just dismissed the topic. it hurt, but i can't find myself getting angry with them. they're the only friends i had. 
          	
          	anyway, thanks whoever reading this, i guess. i know no one would actually read this, but if there's anyone, thanks. 

-mcstarr

@tookthebiscuits thank you so much ❤️ i appreciate that❤️
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tookthebiscuits

sorry that this stuff is happening to you :( 
          	  if you want to talk, i’m here and ready to listen ❤️
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-mcstarr

@ragadama you're welcome!
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-mcstarr

this message may be offensive
hi. I've been feeling very unmotivated and bad lately. it feels like I'm just a body without soul. I've got a my very first job outside my internship and it's quite stressful. 
          
          I'm still a student but I've got a background of video editing and stuff. this job has taken a toll. i consider myself as a very mood-driven soul. when i tried to edit, i tried to connect with the song and the visual. this job however has been hard. i can't connect with the song at all and the visuals are hard to find. 
          
          my client didn't leave any details on what he wants, so it's quite hard for me to go without any inspiration at all. not to mention that my client is my sister's boyfriend. 
          
          and to add to the stress, it's been 3 weeks and i only had 3% of the edit done. he didn't gave me any deadline and it's stressing me out. 
          
          to add to the stress again, i had started my 3 weeks of college. i go to an art institute, and lemme tell you every project and homework are EXPENSIVE. 
          
          however, i didn't get any job done. i can't even take myself out of the bed. I don't know what to do and the only escape is reading fanfictions and writing. the worst thing is, it didn't gave me much dopamine anymore. it only waste my time. 
          
          i had considered talking to therapist to help my anxiety that i had for the past few years and maybe gave me answers for my condition right now but they're expensive as fuck that i consider take an easy way out. 
          
          i have no one to talk to, my sister is always busy, i tried to talk with my parents they only tell me to pray more as if it would help me. it's not. i tried to talk to my friends earlier but they just dismissed the topic. it hurt, but i can't find myself getting angry with them. they're the only friends i had. 
          
          anyway, thanks whoever reading this, i guess. i know no one would actually read this, but if there's anyone, thanks. 

-mcstarr

@tookthebiscuits thank you so much ❤️ i appreciate that❤️
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tookthebiscuits

sorry that this stuff is happening to you :( 
            if you want to talk, i’m here and ready to listen ❤️
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-mcstarr

I've been trying to find bondi rescue fics I'm so obsessed pls can anyone recommend me some good ones??? 

-mcstarr

@eviIgirI oh yeah! hoppo is the king! and maxie is deffo one of the best lifeguards! 
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-mcstarr

@eviIgirI me too :( h man is like the sould of bondi i reckon he's so cool
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