Hey so this might be triggering to some but I don't really think it is that bad.
But I've been sh clean for a whole year! 1 year, 1 month, 9 days and 16 minutes! Despite losing my favorite person my best friend my mother 203 days ago on October 6th. I never even thought about sh, I'm so proud of myself, the only scab I have on my body right now is from when I accidentally scratched myself when I slept. 2022, 2021 and 2017 me would've never thought this was possible! Recovery and healing is possible! It wasn't easy for sure and maybe I still don't cope in the best ways but I've found something that worked! And I don't know if I'll relapse but I hope I won't.