-ochakai

Current thoughts once again:
          	
          	Why does the media think depression is aesthetic? I cant say much on depression, as I don't believe I have it...but...
          	
          	Furthermore, I question why mental illness is seen as something romantic. This thought rather occured when I saw "depression aesthetic" pop into my search bar when googling bout depression (I do a lot of research on this stuff for proper psychology for my ocs who suffer mental illness or such)
          	
          	When I saw it I wondered why people think depression is an aesthetic? What is beautiful about it? Why is it romantic to suffer it? 
          	
          	
          	Will idealism settle around everyone's suffering soon?

-ochakai

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Second thoughts:
          	  
          	  Why are yanderes seen as idealistic so much? Whenever I see yanderes it's never treated like they did something wrong, but rather that they're badass for their murdering of people. I usually dont mind yandere's but a lot of the times, everyone looks past that a yandere has serious mental problems and everyone just thinks "anime girls uwu cute she murdered a man lolz". 
          	  
          	  Have people seen the Yuka Takaoka case? That shit makes me sick. And yet people supported it.
          	  
          	  What is wrong with humanity.
          	  
          	  Sorry, I hate to seem misanthropic and all, but nevertheless,, yanderes shouldn't be ideal. You can like them and still establish they have something wrong with them and understand that what they are doing is not cute.
          	  
          	  Stop being blinded by your boners for pixels.
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-ochakai

Current thoughts once again:
          
          Why does the media think depression is aesthetic? I cant say much on depression, as I don't believe I have it...but...
          
          Furthermore, I question why mental illness is seen as something romantic. This thought rather occured when I saw "depression aesthetic" pop into my search bar when googling bout depression (I do a lot of research on this stuff for proper psychology for my ocs who suffer mental illness or such)
          
          When I saw it I wondered why people think depression is an aesthetic? What is beautiful about it? Why is it romantic to suffer it? 
          
          
          Will idealism settle around everyone's suffering soon?

-ochakai

this message may be offensive 
Second thoughts:
            
            Why are yanderes seen as idealistic so much? Whenever I see yanderes it's never treated like they did something wrong, but rather that they're badass for their murdering of people. I usually dont mind yandere's but a lot of the times, everyone looks past that a yandere has serious mental problems and everyone just thinks "anime girls uwu cute she murdered a man lolz". 
            
            Have people seen the Yuka Takaoka case? That shit makes me sick. And yet people supported it.
            
            What is wrong with humanity.
            
            Sorry, I hate to seem misanthropic and all, but nevertheless,, yanderes shouldn't be ideal. You can like them and still establish they have something wrong with them and understand that what they are doing is not cute.
            
            Stop being blinded by your boners for pixels.
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-ochakai

im gonna say that this message board is gonna become a vent area/random pondering written down. so uh. yeah here's my new thoughts:
          
          
          i wonder what it's like to have a crush. i never had one, not even fictional ones. I can only reference off of what media and friends have said. 
          
          I can think ones appearance and or personality is cute or nice but I can never fall in love with them
          
          The feeling infatuation for a person.
          I cant feel that.
          
          Maybe I have and it's just not as beautiful as media makes it seem
          
          I dont know.
          
          It sucks though.
          
          Infatuation for someone.
          
          When will I feel that?

-ochakai

You ever kind of just wish you could disappear on the internet forever and have every comment and account you've made deleted?? I sometimes feel that. I kind of regret having accounts I cant ever access again and every crappy thing I've made and commented will forever be on display. It makes me wish I had never thought about posting at all during these times....?? Its weird. But it happens.
          
          
          I think sometimes I just wish I could reverse every thing that made my life turn into the balls of regrets it is.

-ochakai

they say "live and learn" yet it feels better to of not have done things at all.
            
            I'll probably regret posting this later maybe. Who knows anymore. I forgot what isnt a regret at this point.
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