So. I think you need this account. I believe it is a good and healthy way to keep you feeling like you belong. I admire your strength and courage. Your the perfect person to have an account like this. You understand what depression really is and how hard it can be, and instead of wanting to simply give up and find the nearest aspen tree and tie a rope around it, you stayed positive. You told yourself, "Everything is going to be okay. I can see the end of this." Sure, sometimes you must have felt like there was only one way out, but who hasn't? Well this is very, long so in short, keep up the good work.