alOha

i just cant see my archive rn coz i feel like a stupido sooo sooo muchhh haih

i cried like for two days already. im not that strong enough ig haih

i just scared to tell my mom the results haih

i hate it when sometimes i feel like want somebody to comfort me in which my used to be someone so important in my life but NAH ! NO! I WONT! JUST BE YOURSELF! YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH! I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS! YOU STILL GOT YOUR MOM DAD BROTHER MIKO PIKO! everyone's love you! remember that! 

i feel sorry to my mon and dad

i just need someone to comfort ig?¿ or someone who can makes me feel much better? like some words of affirmation things? second sem gonna start in a few days. and then im gonna to back to my desa one day earlier than my roomie. so this sunday in having sahur alone :,) i think that makes me more sad haih ,very far from my parents. i know im not a good daughter for them, i just want to be the best for them. But my results, makes my heart dropped like wjjchsjs it's  explainable

can i? do i deserve second  chance? can i fix it? my first sem result? my future? do they want someone who get bad result? can i makes my parents happy? am i gonna be a good daughter in future or even rn?

i think i have never felt like this where i dont know how to express my feelings like want to rant to someone but i just cant because i font feel like that tho, it just that i want to disappear from anyone even from social media. I have never feel like this before, is it just im overthink of somewhat i shouldn't have tho or just my reactions towards all the things happen lately, like my results , having Ramadan without my parents and far from them, just want to be at home , not anywhere. Am I  a bad person? A failed first daughter?  Not even deserve to study at U*M? I just waste my parents money haih. I dont deserve them :( They're just makes me feel more bad because of their effort is just makes me want to cry like river

i felt so lost

idk