-rainbcwss

✎ . . .  I’m spray painting plastic so I can make a fairy garden . It probably won’t be that great but imma try .

-rainbcwss

✎ . . .  I just keep ruining things don’t I ?
          
          
          I keep ruining friendships,, romantic relationships,, every relationship I get into I eventually just ruin it . . .
          
          
          I wish it wasn’t this way ,, I keep trying to be better it just feels like it’s not enough. I’m still forgetful and stupid af . . . Still doing things that make people mad .
          
          
          Stillbeingforgottenbyeveryoneirl 
          
          
          Like I wanna be there for others and I try to be as much as I can but sometimes I just get so overwhelmed with my own emotions then ,, Oop wait ,, I lost someone because they get the wrong idea or something .
          
          
          It’s fine though .  : /   just fine . Sorry to whoever sees this ,, I’m just . . . I’m just struggling rn

-rainbcwss

✎ . . .  I’m stupid ,, like actually stupid . I just stared at a wall mumbling gibberish for a fat second then flopped back into bed . -w-“ 
          
          
          I’ve been so out of it recently and this is just one of many dumb things I’ve done in the past few weeks . : /

-rainbcwss

✎ . . .  Wow ,, I actually use this account lol 
          
          
          Anyways hi ,, how are you guys doing today ?

-rainbcwss

『  @Noah-Nutella-Novels   』
            
            
            ✎ . . .  Oh ,, I’m sorry to hear that . Do let me know if there’s anything I can do to help with that okay ? Remember that you matter and you are loved by me. : )
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ThePunkPoet

@-rainbcwss Depressed.
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-rainbcwss

this message may be offensive 
✎ . . .  I feel so fucking awful right now and I hate it . . . Why do I feel awful ?? 
          
          
          
          Here’s why . . . I just attempted to text one of my ((rather toxic and not great for me)) exes on an odd guilty impulse feeling like it’s all my fault because I was too clingy to the person hence why they stopped talking to me and shit . I guess it’s good in a way that my message couldn’t reach them because I probably would have gotten myself back into that unhealthy cycle again : /
          
          
          
          Anyways sorry for that guys it’s just been on my mind for a bit . . . My skin is literally pricking because emotions hhhh :T anyone else get that ?

lemonhoax

@-sometimes-nice- I know the feeling too. I've been in that cycle for like 6 months and it sucked tbh. I blamed myself all the time too and both of us didnt stop contacting each other which made stuff worse. Please do take care of yourself and know its gonna be better. And don't blame yourself too much. We all make mistakes but we can learn from it. And yea in toxic friendships /relationships a lotta the times we are made to feel guilty. Might be best that yeah they didnt respond.
            
            do take care! ♥️ and remember you are not a bitch or a heartless person if you choose yourself first and decide to throw the trashy people outside. Took me some time to learn this...but yeah. 
            
            Love and hugs  
            Rose
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ThePunkPoet

@-sometimes-nice- Oh God. That's dreadful. I get it. I do a lot of things on impulse too... And I constantly blame myself for everything.
            
            I was in a somewhat similar situation recently. I told you a bit about it in PMs. Basically, I can an incredibly toxic friend I ended my relationship with, and I still feel as if I was the one in the wrong.
            
            Please try your best not to blame yourself for this... People are shitty and inconsiderate. But there are good ones out there, like you.
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ThePunkPoet

Woooaaah.. I'm here. :)
          
          "I've followed you! Now you can never get rid of me! Mwhahaha!"
          
          ...
          
          "Well, I mean- unless you block me." ._.

ThePunkPoet

@-anxious-vampy- I dunno, bro. I'm annoying af.
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-rainbcwss

『  @Tea-And-Story-Time   』
            
            
            ✎ . . .  and  why  would  I  want  to  do  that  ??  you’re  my  friend  !!
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