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Quick update on life.
I want a punching bag, but my parents obviously won’t let me get one so I’m stuck punching trees when I’m mad.
Speaking of punching trees, I do it without wrapping my hands. It fucking hurts haha. My knuckles and my knees are bruised. Best part? Forcing myself to run yard after yard after working my legs for 20 minutes already. Couldn’t walk today, did it again anyways.
I’m destroying myself and I don’t know how to stop. It’s keeping me sane, punching something, running, practicing. I’m going to end up learning to fight properly once I’m old enough but for now I’m stuck purposely hurting myself to keep myself from hurting myself.