-sadRainy_D4y

Haven't been on this acc for awhile.
          	
          	
          	
          	I was gonna send this to my friend instead of posting it here, but she's asleep and I don't wish to bother her.
          	
          	
          	Just remembered that my existence was a mistake. I was only born because my mom cheated.
          	When I was born, I basically ruined my moms life.
          	I caused her to get a divorce, she also almost died giving birth to me. My life, is one that should've never existed. 
          	My mom should've never had me, she should've aborted me or I should've been a miscarriage. 
          	I shouldn't be alive.
          	
          	Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed. Goodnight.

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  it wasn't in your control. You didn't have a choice. You had nothing to do with it. She did it to herself. It's not your fault. 
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-sadRainy_D4y

Haven't been on this acc for awhile.
          
          
          
          I was gonna send this to my friend instead of posting it here, but she's asleep and I don't wish to bother her.
          
          
          Just remembered that my existence was a mistake. I was only born because my mom cheated.
          When I was born, I basically ruined my moms life.
          I caused her to get a divorce, she also almost died giving birth to me. My life, is one that should've never existed. 
          My mom should've never had me, she should've aborted me or I should've been a miscarriage. 
          I shouldn't be alive.
          
          Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed. Goodnight.

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  it wasn't in your control. You didn't have a choice. You had nothing to do with it. She did it to herself. It's not your fault. 
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-sadRainy_D4y

I feel like killing myself rn.
          Currently only one person knows why

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  I just read it ): and I hope you get better soon 
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-sadRainy_D4y

@1-800-BEEBITCH 
            I will try to if needed (;
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-sadRainy_D4y

Don't mind this.
          Just me being an attention seeker
          Nothing new (:
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I can't do this anymore.
          It hurts to get out of bed in the morning.
          It hurts to get ready for another day.
          It hurts to live.
          I cant kill myself because no matter what I do or how hard I try, i can't do it.
          
          All I want is to be free, happy, or dead
          Is that too much to ask for? ):

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  yes, you should go to bed
            I understand how you feel, I went through the same thing. And here I am, healthy and getting better (: You'll be fine, just hang on for a bit longer
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-sadRainy_D4y

Well, i should go to bed instead of wallowing in self-pity like i always do...
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-sadRainy_D4y

My sister cut my thigh...
          It was really deep and long, it was also dripping blood-
          Well, thank you H.
          I now will have another scar on my thigh (:
          
          Anyway, I have to go to bed now or else my mother will kill me.
          Goodnight and Goodbye.

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  okay, make sure to check it in the mornings and evenings to make sure you don't get an infection
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-sadRainy_D4y

@thisusergaveuponlife 
            Yeah, I'm ok now. I just cant sit properly because it was on the back of my thigh...
            I disinfected it.
            I put some band-aids on it
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-sadRainy_D4y

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I've come to the realization that I have an addiction to Benadryl and melatonin pills.
          Am I going to to get professional help?
          Absolutely the fuck not :D
          Am I going to tell someone irl?
          Hah- Nope-

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  thank you, hope you're asleep now tho
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thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  then stop taking them please
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-sadRainy_D4y

We had a stay in place at school today because a kid had a seizure. (not sure what happened after)
          Most of my 7th period was spent in my 6th period classroom, so that was fun.
          We played games most of the time, and during my 7th period we just sat and talked to each other

-sadRainy_D4y

Might just do a face reveal today ^ ⁠³^

1-800-BEEBITCH

@-sadRainy_D4y wattpad is definitely on crack- and noice :]
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C_Cotton_Candysky

@-sadRainy_D4y oooo! 
            Oh damn- I mean wattpad is probably on crack everyday- 
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-sadRainy_D4y

@-sadRainy_D4y 
            Idk though because I think Wattpad might be on crack-
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-sadRainy_D4y

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I e n v y those that are out of school already.
          I still have 2 weeks :,)
          Someone kidnap me for those 2 weeks cause I don't wanna do this shit anymore ;-;

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  I have three weeks lmao I know how you feel
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-sadRainy_D4y

@SleepDeprivedRaven_ 
            oh- 
            good luck..
            Don't die-
            ;-;
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-sadRainy_D4y

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FUCK
          I FORGOT THAT ITS PRIDE MONTH-
          AH SHIT-

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  lol (:
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-sadRainy_D4y

@C_Cotton_CandySky 
            GLAD I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE
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-sadRainy_D4y

I just cut my hair. I cut it shorter than I was expecting, but it's fine. 
          My moms probably going to be mad at me, but I don't care because I kinda like it :)
          (btw, I only cut my bangs. I don't trust myself to cut anywhere else)

thisusergaveuponlife

@ -sadRainy_D4y  ooh!
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