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Haven't been on this acc for awhile.
          
          
          
          I was gonna send this to my friend instead of posting it here, but she's asleep and I don't wish to bother her.
          
          
          Just remembered that my existence was a mistake. I was only born because my mom cheated.
          When I was born, I basically ruined my moms life.
          I caused her to get a divorce, she also almost died giving birth to me. My life, is one that should've never existed. 
          My mom should've never had me, she should've aborted me or I should've been a miscarriage. 
          I shouldn't be alive.
          
          Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed. Goodnight.

I feel like killing myself rn.
          Currently only one person knows why

Don't mind this.
          Just me being an attention seeker
          Nothing new (:
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I can't do this anymore.
          It hurts to get out of bed in the morning.
          It hurts to get ready for another day.
          It hurts to live.
          I cant kill myself because no matter what I do or how hard I try, i can't do it.
          
          All I want is to be free, happy, or dead
          Is that too much to ask for? ):

My sister cut my thigh...
          It was really deep and long, it was also dripping blood-
          Well, thank you H.
          I now will have another scar on my thigh (:
          
          Anyway, I have to go to bed now or else my mother will kill me.
          Goodnight and Goodbye.

I've come to the realization that I have an addiction to Benadryl and melatonin pills.
          Am I going to to get professional help?
          Absolutely the fuck not :D
          Am I going to tell someone irl?
          Hah- Nope-

We had a stay in place at school today because a kid had a seizure. (not sure what happened after)
          Most of my 7th period was spent in my 6th period classroom, so that was fun.
          We played games most of the time, and during my 7th period we just sat and talked to each other

Might just do a face reveal today ^ ⁠³^

I e n v y those that are out of school already.
          I still have 2 weeks :,)
          Someone kidnap me for those 2 weeks cause I don't wanna do this shit anymore ;-;

FUCK
          I FORGOT THAT ITS PRIDE MONTH-
          AH SHIT-

I just cut my hair. I cut it shorter than I was expecting, but it's fine. 
          My moms probably going to be mad at me, but I don't care because I kinda like it :)
          (btw, I only cut my bangs. I don't trust myself to cut anywhere else)