-sainzachu

I think I need to talk to somebody on real life but I just can’t with my family 
          	I don’t want them to worry 
          	It’s probably not even as bad as I am feeling 
          	But everything came back today and I am so scared 
          	Two weeks ago I was crying at night so bad that I looked wrecked the whole day in school and I think it happened again
          	I try so hard not to but what can one even do when they grew up worrying about everybody and now I am probably losing my third grandparent to another illness 
          	The same that took my grandfather when I was little
          	I grew up watching my mum cry 
          	My grandfather pretend he was okay for me with  jokes and days spent visiting him in the hospital
          	And now my grandma (my mothers mum) has cancer too and some even in the same place
          	It’s not looking great
          	She’s losing her hair and everything from my childhood including other stuff just came running back to me and I can’t do this again
          	I just can’t 
          	I can’t

LeahF3518v1D

@-sainzachu I've just read this and my hearts braking for you. You're carrying an incredibly heavy amount of pain right now. Please don't down-play what you are feeling or think it's "not that bad," what you've describe is genuinely such a painful experience. It is so normal that you feel lost and vulnerable and that you're crying and feeling scared, your pain is real and valid. I just wanted to send you some love right now and let you know that your pain is real and valid, you have so many people that care about you. I really hope that you can find someone to talk to, maybe your school counselor if you have one? Please be kind to yourself, suffering is human and there's people that are here to support you. Much love 🩷
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-sainzachu

I think I need to talk to somebody on real life but I just can’t with my family 
          I don’t want them to worry 
          It’s probably not even as bad as I am feeling 
          But everything came back today and I am so scared 
          Two weeks ago I was crying at night so bad that I looked wrecked the whole day in school and I think it happened again
          I try so hard not to but what can one even do when they grew up worrying about everybody and now I am probably losing my third grandparent to another illness 
          The same that took my grandfather when I was little
          I grew up watching my mum cry 
          My grandfather pretend he was okay for me with  jokes and days spent visiting him in the hospital
          And now my grandma (my mothers mum) has cancer too and some even in the same place
          It’s not looking great
          She’s losing her hair and everything from my childhood including other stuff just came running back to me and I can’t do this again
          I just can’t 
          I can’t

LeahF3518v1D

@-sainzachu I've just read this and my hearts braking for you. You're carrying an incredibly heavy amount of pain right now. Please don't down-play what you are feeling or think it's "not that bad," what you've describe is genuinely such a painful experience. It is so normal that you feel lost and vulnerable and that you're crying and feeling scared, your pain is real and valid. I just wanted to send you some love right now and let you know that your pain is real and valid, you have so many people that care about you. I really hope that you can find someone to talk to, maybe your school counselor if you have one? Please be kind to yourself, suffering is human and there's people that are here to support you. Much love 🩷
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-sainzachu

I really want my mum to be able to go to the oasis concert in Germany but getting tickets will be so dealing hard and I can’t apply because I am underage :(
          I wasn’t aware that she was a fan and she just told me it’s her whole youth
          She knows every song by heart and realllyyy wants to go

-sainzachu

@Miraculouslyokay thanks I hope my mom applies 
            I told her to atleast try :(
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Miraculouslyokay

@-sainzachu Tickets for that are so expensive omg good luck
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