-sunhyuck

as we swam, or played, or talked, a feeling would come. It was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. It was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came. But it was neither of those, buoyant where they were heavy, bright where they were dull. I had known contentment before, brief snatches of time in which I pursued solitary pleasure: skipping stones or dicing or dreaming. But in truth, it had been less a presence than an absence, a laying aside of dread: my father was not near, nor boys. I was not hungry, or tired, or sick.
          	
          	This feeling was different. I found myself grinning until my cheeks hurt, my scalp prickling till I thought it might lift off my head. My tongue ran away from me, giddy with freedom. This and this and this, I said to him. I did not have to fear that I spoke too much. I did not have to worry that I was too slender or too slow. This and this and this! I taught him how to skip stones, and he taught me how to carve wood. I could feel every nerve in my body, every brush of air against my skin.

iheartsungie

@-sunhyuck ,, welp
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-sunhyuck

@iheartsungie 
          	  you are right it's from the book the song of achilles-
          	  
          	  it's in the pov of patroclus
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iheartsungie

don't tell me this is that greek couple i forgot the name of :sob:
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-sunhyuck

as we swam, or played, or talked, a feeling would come. It was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. It was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came. But it was neither of those, buoyant where they were heavy, bright where they were dull. I had known contentment before, brief snatches of time in which I pursued solitary pleasure: skipping stones or dicing or dreaming. But in truth, it had been less a presence than an absence, a laying aside of dread: my father was not near, nor boys. I was not hungry, or tired, or sick.
          
          This feeling was different. I found myself grinning until my cheeks hurt, my scalp prickling till I thought it might lift off my head. My tongue ran away from me, giddy with freedom. This and this and this, I said to him. I did not have to fear that I spoke too much. I did not have to worry that I was too slender or too slow. This and this and this! I taught him how to skip stones, and he taught me how to carve wood. I could feel every nerve in my body, every brush of air against my skin.

iheartsungie

@-sunhyuck ,, welp
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-sunhyuck

@iheartsungie 
            you are right it's from the book the song of achilles-
            
            it's in the pov of patroclus
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iheartsungie

don't tell me this is that greek couple i forgot the name of :sob:
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-sunhyuck

I am so done with life I don't know what to do anymore 
          
          if I should change to economics or keep psychology 
          how do I tell my mom about it 
           
          I always doubt if I should do this or that or not do this or that 
          
          if I dont I always regret it 
          if i do Idk what happens I never took part in anything 
          
          I regret my whole damn life
          
          my parents still have expectations from me but I have just given up at this point 
          
          I really don't want anything but a settled job and a good decent life idk if I could get any of that anymore

baby-photos

@-sunhyuck I’m glad hun. If that’s what works, stay offline! I wish only the best for you xx
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-sunhyuck

@CosmicBhai  @baby-photos
            
            thanks but I am feeling much better these days after spending time with everyone rather than sticking online 
            and I am quite happy these days :D
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CosmicBhai

@-sunhyuck bro ita kya tension le rhi h 
            
            Do what your heart says 
            
            It's better to learn from your own mistakes then regret following others 
            
            I followed the school rules and my jee was ruined but now I'm taking a drop without little knowledge of what to do but still I'm finding my way and I'm satisfied with my decision as it's mine alone
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